Enter by the gate

OK, so, i finally figured out, after having come off GLS(God-life-support) that He had engineered things so I could have some time to grieve and... cover myself... or get over the silly woman and her foolish ways. Of course the fact that she dies is as plain as a baboon's bare ass, but because i do not have the... mental equipment... to physically harm someone unless i despise myself first, i therefore can not do it myself, since i have developd a healthy dose of ... self esteem. Pity,that, because i wanted to strangle michelle pereira myself, but i guess she will just have to ... die.AND GO TO HELL. FOREVER. YESSSS! My... point, though, is that for some weird reason, even after reading my posts and, at times, seeing me in action, some idiots have assumed that there is something so... special... about themselves, to me that i would somehow NOT BE MYSELF when it came to them, and i would let them walk all over me But the MAVERICK makes no exceptions for anyone. Which means that, for me the ONLY way any woman can get near me is that she have caught my eye, expressed an... interest ... in me HERSELF and NOT because she has a child she wants taken care of, or she thinks that her own interpretation of what i Should be doing is better than my own view... because to me THAT negates the basic tenets of God's burden on real women:- NEVERTHELESS your desire shall be for your husband and he shall rule over you so, if a woman does NOT humble herself and sort of... wait on me to discover my will, and thus respect my invisible boundaries... she 'desires' to rule over me, and, as pinchers said "you should never diss the champion" and shewould be dissing me since i bend down forno one. Reason i am saying this is that i, as a BLACK man, was rather... taken aback... when I saw the art chick's "sister"-eh i ain't sure about THAT- with a xhosa guy fro the david matthews firm and she was instructing the poor foolon what she wanted done, but,as everyone who has seen the arseholes work, without proper equipment, will testify, the guys are being abused. So, though i hate every such xhosa idiot, i felt for them. Till i saw her walk to her car, and figured out that she only had to humble herself to ONE person, and not be fair. Now, my... question is, did what i saw signify something deep, or was it all just superficial? Because i am burning to put an endd to my.. unlovely life. And curiousity is beginning to gall my throat. I am tired, i want to just ease my pain a bit