Of course, she could make it easier for me by just hating me so that I can just freely kill everyone and not have to worry about letting anyone from that family... and Michelle... live.
I like clean solutions, whereas if she is... attached, it would get complicated, because i would have to have two more women just as not to kill HER, and its not easy to use up my allotment for... self-restraining. I mean 39 is NOT a large number, more a very small limited number out of billions, see?
Of course, she is a mom, so she will not be willing to let her child go... I mean how do you expect to live with some guy you know is responsible... ten years later, for the death of your mother, daughter, brother(s?) [hey, saw this other imp... I mean short guy, but he had a nose like Nicky?, walking like robocop to the internet cafe one day after I had gone to see the art guys... way long back, but I was momentarily confused about whether that was butt-head, because he was clean shaven, and his strutting would have been impressive if he had been more than 2 inches off the ground] well, maybe not manually, but they die anyway because you see, I can not have them around?
Of course she would hate me, and there I would rest easy so that I can just walk away, and come back later and just kill the whole family, her included, so that we do not have to find out just what she was thinking, and just keep it to the fact that she was party to my being humiliated, an ACTIVE party, and I would not let bygones be bygones.
Its a pity she is so beautiful: I am the kind of person who would reject better if shown me because I wanted... the first cut, so I will probably have to just settle for...mediocre women from now on.
But, c'est la vie... such is life!
hutete ura wangu
utete ura hwangu
terera kurira kwe handa
ichitinya iwe gondo
seiko uchibata mwana wangu
mucheche-cheche asina mhosva
kukandira ndoga kurera ndoga
iwe wave kutomuponda anyore
wandidarirei ura hwangu
[which means]
my womb bears fruit for death (literally, my insides are thin)
listen to the moaning of the fowl
Complaining to the eagle
why do you grab hold of my child
so so young without wrong
I laid the egg alone and bore it alone
and you kill so easy
why do that with the fruit of my womb?
Personally, I would be very touched except that, you see, where God is concerned, there is really NO recognition of... parenthood, nor is there any justification in having the burden of being a parent to Him, because you see, it should all NEVER have happened to begin with, and he will not justify a falsehood, as He created this world to be inhabited by ONE man (well, two of him but one)
and the female inclusion came about as I have stressed before.
So, of course, everything, by default, comes to... me, and so, I can not have people and their kids... violating... my territory, and since I am incapable of bending to people's whims, I give a choice, my way, or die.
Anyway, I was offering butt-head, out of consideration that he is Nicky?'s sister, a way to not die and be tormented: go to Zimbabwe and at least live till you can die peacefully.
Fools chose to refuse.
FINE by me.
No skin off MY nose!
