yeah, right, Allison, and just having her pass by makes my head start spinning, and NO, it is not what you think!
I literally had a headache...maybe it was sitting in the sun, but I asked myself, WTF?
Because now I have to stop looking at the simple black and white stuff and try to figure out, from God's viewpoint to the woman's actual emotions, whether, for example, she was even AWARE of me!
Funny thing, God would never lie to me!
I walked out of that place, went back to the alley, walked up and down, and then, who should pass by again but the trio, and she smiles at everyone else and does not even look at me, and then I call it a day, but I needed change so I go to this Muslim shop, where this bad-tempered old granny grudgingly gives change, and who should be there but the lady herself, and I am like, hmm, NOW I discover if the three are a family, but what do you have?
the guy and the boy are way inside the shop, and the lady is waiting by the till discussing some antibiotics things and such with another lady being served and I wait behind them, and she does not notice me, till the lady finishes her purchase, and then she turns, and... nothing!
If only people were numbers, or life were simple mathematics, I would be happily at home, because there are twenty-four women who are as impossible to get as flying to the moon by levitation, and THIS is what God has stored for me?
This is ... crazy!
I would rather kill butt-head and know where I stand, because this...living among people is too... complicated.
I can not even read any of these people.
butt-head's mother passes by in the afternoon, and passes by again, I thought she would be so mad at me for my decision, and yet... fuck, this is too complicated.
I want out. Give me someone's head and I will happily slit it!
