I wish I could say I am totally impervious to things, but the truth is that I can not be killed, by anything, but in everything else i am like... everyone else... except maybe that when I get fed up with this I will probably have to... shrug it off.
THAT I can not explain as yet, but I know that the ability to be truly untouchable lies deep down somewhere in my heart, and if the right situation comes along, I will be able to unearth it.
Sad, though, about the heart, because so far, aside from the 37 women to whom I am a stranger that has certain attractions, nobody I have come into contact with has ever had time for me... for me.
Like I do not want someone who will just love to be around me because... I am.
The reason, I guess, that I so much want michelle dead is that she pretended to care, for me, when in effect she was coldly calculating how to get me in her clutches. I remember the 7th of July, when she sat by my side and invited me to go on this yookos thing, and I did [Pastor Chris bullshit FYI], and once there, I sent a request that people would join me in prayer to get this girl, Paula. Should have seen the look on her face! This after punching me on the shoulder and saying, "I will not marry you; you are too clever for me!", when I explained to her why I had put a starfish as my profile picture [Greek 5, pent derives from the alaphnumeric Hebrew's corresponding letter, pronounced 'He", which means to rise, NOT to change the mind] meaning she was giving broad hints that I ought to rise to her bait.
How does the song go:
bring back those simple times of
yesterday
when man was a man, and a friend was a friend
when man was a man, and a friend was a friend
bring back those simple times of
yesterday
when you said what you meant
and you meant what you said.
when you said what you meant
and you meant what you said.
Anyway, she is NOT alone in her deception... of me.
Sure THIS lady tried to act all weak and defenseless, but hey, I have learned just how crafty she is:- she drives past me, parks, waits till she is certain she has eye contact, and THEN she tries to make me see just how.. desirable she is. So that I can do... WHAT?
Not punish butt-head, yes?
Well, I will at LEAST break his leg, and will strangle HER if I ever come across her again, while I am around here.
I am so fed up with pretense, and I hate people thinking they can pull a fast one over me because I always make the mistake that people reason and act as I do.
It would be nice, though, if someone who KNEW about me would come forward and just show her... appreciation.
I have, almost literally, a heaviness on my heart that the only way I can be accepted is if I am a stranger to people. It hurts, in a way. Makes me feel too much of a freak, too much the outsider, always.
Sure THIS lady tried to act all weak and defenseless, but hey, I have learned just how crafty she is:- she drives past me, parks, waits till she is certain she has eye contact, and THEN she tries to make me see just how.. desirable she is. So that I can do... WHAT?
Not punish butt-head, yes?
Well, I will at LEAST break his leg, and will strangle HER if I ever come across her again, while I am around here.
I am so fed up with pretense, and I hate people thinking they can pull a fast one over me because I always make the mistake that people reason and act as I do.
It would be nice, though, if someone who KNEW about me would come forward and just show her... appreciation.
I have, almost literally, a heaviness on my heart that the only way I can be accepted is if I am a stranger to people. It hurts, in a way. Makes me feel too much of a freak, too much the outsider, always.
Guess, when one gets right down to it, I wish, I long for, someone who will love me, just as I am, someone NOT given to deceit, and all that, because I do not see just how I will ever accept anyone if I can not find even that one. Maybe I will just quit and say to God, I give up, everyone deserves to just perish, heinously, because there is NO truth is anyone anymore.
Hell, why should I have to bear these lies, and have my face ground into the dust simply because some people think I can be twisted around their little fingers?
The more I think of it, the more I get my blood up.
This also will happen:- I addition to michelle dying, then those two meddlers, who each seem to have fairy tendencies [I will use a pair of tongs] will undergo a dramatic... sex change. YESSS!
Imagine fire, a hot pair of tongs crushing and removing the parts they do not seem to need, and then cauterizing these instantly, because the fools should NOT die, but live with their shame.
Mr Moto Mia gets the disarmament he deserves.
The only ... ENIGMA... here is Nicky?, because her I can not make head or tail of. Wonder what it will take to smoke HER out!
On one hand, I am sure if she ever treats me... lightly I will kill her, [let me put it this way, either she is as I saw in the visions, or I am way off. If she is, then how the fuck am I, an unforgiving person, going to be able to even share the same... room... with someone I KNOW went out and humiliated me to someone else. I mean, I look at her, and I will want to throttle her. Simple and straightforward!], but on the other hand, I can not come to any conclusion about her based on what I... know.
May as well forget about HER, for the time being. If I was not as blind as a bat, I would be looking at women righ now, and... WHAT!
Fuck, God, You have me in a spot here!
I am sure I do NOT like this.
Hell, why should I have to bear these lies, and have my face ground into the dust simply because some people think I can be twisted around their little fingers?
The more I think of it, the more I get my blood up.
This also will happen:- I addition to michelle dying, then those two meddlers, who each seem to have fairy tendencies [I will use a pair of tongs] will undergo a dramatic... sex change. YESSS!
Imagine fire, a hot pair of tongs crushing and removing the parts they do not seem to need, and then cauterizing these instantly, because the fools should NOT die, but live with their shame.
Mr Moto Mia gets the disarmament he deserves.
The only ... ENIGMA... here is Nicky?, because her I can not make head or tail of. Wonder what it will take to smoke HER out!
On one hand, I am sure if she ever treats me... lightly I will kill her, [let me put it this way, either she is as I saw in the visions, or I am way off. If she is, then how the fuck am I, an unforgiving person, going to be able to even share the same... room... with someone I KNOW went out and humiliated me to someone else. I mean, I look at her, and I will want to throttle her. Simple and straightforward!], but on the other hand, I can not come to any conclusion about her based on what I... know.
May as well forget about HER, for the time being. If I was not as blind as a bat, I would be looking at women righ now, and... WHAT!
Fuck, God, You have me in a spot here!
I am sure I do NOT like this.
