Despite the fact that she parked her car the day before schools opened, opposite the art-shop and near the traffic lights, at the ATM across the road, and we stared at each other, as the other guy she is almost always with got out and went to withdraw money, and she was so... cool..., not her smiling self, and I thought to myself, well, whatever SHE thought of me has worn off, if she ever did, so, well, fuck, let me drop this.
When she drove past, and I stared, and actually physically turned and looked at her as she stared fixedly ahead, apparently not even curious that I did a double-take, I was still NOT certain, but I have learned not to take women at face value. But I was already reasoning things out, and I figured out something that made me start laughing out loud at intervals, even as i walked.
through thorns to the top
Now, I am always forgetting ONE thing, that I DO NOT change, so I can not SAY I desire God, or that I have no one on earth or in heaven I desire but God:- I am rather disinterested in everything, truly, really I do not give a damn! The thing that makes me angry is the fact that I face opposition, and I have to make a change if I want that opposition to go away {oh, by the way, it is curtains for butt-head, I will NOT have mercy on him for his drive-by, and well, let me let you in on a secret, it is not a week away that things ... change..., yessss, but all in order, please!}
now, I was curious about the lady, Allison, with whom I have never spoken so she can not say that I have charmed her with my deep voice, which certain women have said is sexy, or some such bullshit. I hear myself speak, and I wonder that people do not run, because I get personally irritated by the undertones of menace in my own voice.
Anyway, she drove by again, this time as i just passed the Simonstown train Station, and I knew then that she was letting me know about herself, and so, she gets to be number ten,and I get to drop the Dutch girl, because she, Allison, is easily available.
Now, about the 't-h-s' thing; it does NOT mean that I am climbing somewhere but that some 7 and 3 women had worked their way into my heart despite my own disinclination towards them, even though at the moment THEY may think they are all rejected, but I have to say I can not just rush things, I have to be certain about such things, so they may as well learn to wait... on me... and i will make time for them.
So, yesterday's nine i was sure of, and the tenth, Allison are actually THE seven and three, because there are seven blondes and three 'normal haired' girls: the three being Shopaholic Girl, the military crew-cut girl, and Allison.
the rest are golden, red and white haired.
And I was suddenly aware of the... absurdity... of trying to say that the 'five' were members of the OSC, because frankly, I am not going to have room for any of them near me, and actually, since they are women I snatch for myself, they are women who have THIS as redeeming features, and the ONLY member of the OSC I may have had time for, butt-head's mom, is too deeply involved with her son AND she does not have the thing that would make me look at her twice, so, since i have no time for any of the rest {I really hate nicky? and do not feel any affection for her sister}, well, I just have to say, fuck off to all of them. I may have had time for her if she could help out in my upcoming problem for a few days, but i have learned not to expect certain things from people.
the women I have snatched for myself are women I have met and liked, especially because I can stand them NOW and they have daughters, young enough to be innocent and to be ... kept... till they are old enough for me to enjoy... THEM, yesss!
1)The Fish Hoek library woman with her specs and two daughters
2)The blonde who greeted me in her red dress with the 'library opens at nine thirty speech' then smiled without looking at me as I stared at her legs and then she showed up the following day with her... daughter?... in tow
3)the mary contrary mother with her daughter.
now, I was curious about the lady, Allison, with whom I have never spoken so she can not say that I have charmed her with my deep voice, which certain women have said is sexy, or some such bullshit. I hear myself speak, and I wonder that people do not run, because I get personally irritated by the undertones of menace in my own voice.
Anyway, she drove by again, this time as i just passed the Simonstown train Station, and I knew then that she was letting me know about herself, and so, she gets to be number ten,and I get to drop the Dutch girl, because she, Allison, is easily available.
Now, about the 't-h-s' thing; it does NOT mean that I am climbing somewhere but that some 7 and 3 women had worked their way into my heart despite my own disinclination towards them, even though at the moment THEY may think they are all rejected, but I have to say I can not just rush things, I have to be certain about such things, so they may as well learn to wait... on me... and i will make time for them.
So, yesterday's nine i was sure of, and the tenth, Allison are actually THE seven and three, because there are seven blondes and three 'normal haired' girls: the three being Shopaholic Girl, the military crew-cut girl, and Allison.
the rest are golden, red and white haired.
And I was suddenly aware of the... absurdity... of trying to say that the 'five' were members of the OSC, because frankly, I am not going to have room for any of them near me, and actually, since they are women I snatch for myself, they are women who have THIS as redeeming features, and the ONLY member of the OSC I may have had time for, butt-head's mom, is too deeply involved with her son AND she does not have the thing that would make me look at her twice, so, since i have no time for any of the rest {I really hate nicky? and do not feel any affection for her sister}, well, I just have to say, fuck off to all of them. I may have had time for her if she could help out in my upcoming problem for a few days, but i have learned not to expect certain things from people.
the women I have snatched for myself are women I have met and liked, especially because I can stand them NOW and they have daughters, young enough to be innocent and to be ... kept... till they are old enough for me to enjoy... THEM, yesss!
1)The Fish Hoek library woman with her specs and two daughters
2)The blonde who greeted me in her red dress with the 'library opens at nine thirty speech' then smiled without looking at me as I stared at her legs and then she showed up the following day with her... daughter?... in tow
3)the mary contrary mother with her daughter.
4)Candice Janine De Mello/ millo? with her nice shape and her daughter.she is also a girl that I want to get to spite sam. We have met and talked and I have liked what she said and what was revealed of her thoughts.
5)Carol's sister, and her daughter. I am aware there is a son, but hey, I am anti-sons, so she gets to come with her daughter only. Fuck, the woman has an ass on her that I loved from when I saw her first at Simonstown library with her stuck-up sister, carol, and then later on when we talked at Fish Hoek library.
but this is the way things will be going: last night obama was officially sworn in as president of the USA for a second term, so he is officially in the driver's seat. That is good, on one hand. Then there is the other thing, that tomorrow is the last day that the total darkness in Alaska ends, which means everyone will be expecting the sun to start shining,yes?
But it will shine... continuously, see, because i NEED that to happen and God is a God of ... "thin violence"..., when He does something it will seem normal but this time, the abnormal thing will be that there will be gradual darkness down here, and as soon as the darkness descends, I, the killing machine, will start with michelle's brother and then butt-head.
pity the fool never had balls to do as I told him, and either confront me, in which case he would be dead soon, or run away, in which case I would have let him go to Zimbabwe. because I hate the other females as well, and I am NOT going to torture myself by going back to Zimbabwe, they could have gone to to Zimbabwe as well, and stayed there till they died, but well, they will have to stay here till they all die and I hang up their bodies beside michelle's.
Now, I will be back probably in November, but that is not what worries me; at the moment I will have to have a place to stay that is rather out of the way till they make the Lord Nelson Hotel free for me, and that is not something that will just ... happen, see, because, here it FINALLY comes, "by Saturday EVERYONE will know my Name" and so, i can not walk that freely among people I know, since I would have everyone so scared of me I am likely to be very hungry by the time I get to kill faggot-face.
But, at least, my wait is over, and soon I will be having women for myself and having plenty-plus sex, and ignoring everyone else and killing other undesirables.
YESSS!
I dont need a lawyer coz there wont be a case
forget what you see know your life get your place
I am the dutty dappa down inna the place
I'm about to show you what respect really is...
forget what you see know your life get your place
I am the dutty dappa down inna the place
I'm about to show you what respect really is...
