Money changes things

GOD pitched up when i was worried about my mother, and His stance; His outlook as far as my mom, like how He confirmed she did not love me, and His insistence on bringing to my attention all these... details so that i did not forget how much she hated me for her son's sake, and tried to kill me and that not once but many times, stripped me of my reticence to take charge of my life, and so i obstinately refused to either be slavishly affectionate to her - or God - or be her enemy - or His. I sought a way out, which is why i ended up impossibly hiv +ve and alive after ishould be dead and surviving by the 'bare essence' of life, as it seemed impossible for me to ever progress in life or die. The deadlock was broken by the ten women, and the... currently... most notable one was the petite blond chick who, when i flared up as i waited for the F/hoek library to open and this short-haired mother was grating on my nerves bytrying to be a... man...spoke so softly and soothingly to her mother and then walked out. Now i am, to those with eyes, easy to read, and when i looked at her,as she turned from facing me directly to facing the doorway, i was wondering whether

she , who also had a child with her, was trying to push the brat onto some idiot and whether she felt i was that idiot- remember i had just had such an attempt on me by michelle, someone i am looking for an excuse to strangle personally, if i can but FIND one. Girl walked out without even calling the boy, or even grabbing the child's hand, which, in retrospect shows that.it was the BOY who stuck like a leech, not the mother, and i was... pleased. A mother without the erratic illogical fixation that my own had har, and michelle has, and even butt-head's mom has! Goooooodd! So she would not mind much if i ... killed the boy. Later, i was to see allison's replacement- bythe way, allison was in kalk bay the same day i went to F/hoek and she was on the passenger seat of th Cressida she always drove, and i have since concluded that i was wrong about the guy being her twin, since the more obvious answer seems to apply, and there IS something about her that i never... liked ,maybe she was trying to juggle two sets of..balls ... in the air and there is nothing i hate more than a woman that tries to be... in control, and i mean that literally, having sufffered for it- and HER lackadaisy approach to HER kids was even more impressive. I liked. So, if the art chick HAS a child, which i know nothing of and do not want to know of, then she knows what to do if she Really wants to get in my good books.