What- or WHO-I want

If it had not been for the fact that when i got so seriously pissed THIS past time i went under GOD- life support,as i termed it, I would be at this moment singing a eulogy for the blond art chick. And the silly fool has no idea, and has had no idea, all this time that the moment i am... unleashed... then, if she has not... changed, she dies. I was figuring out that ... contentious... vision, and, funny thing, when i met, in REAL LIFE (RL) the colouerd chick nicky, i was aware that she was involved with this malawian guy, and i knew that paula had a boyfriend, but i did not know that both girls were staying with-and had been for the fourmonths since i had gone away from capricorn- these AT their mother's premises.FUNNY THAT,because what i said about the... 'sister' ... was purely a shot in the dark, and i had no idea that she... . Well, thing is two days ago, when the dau before i had seen the art girl cycle past - maybe to show me that she was seeking alternative modes of motion that did not piss me off , as though THAT was the point - and i had then gone to fish hoek and NOT to the internet, and pointedly ignored her as she showed up noisily when her ... 'sister'... also appeared with this David Matthews painter guy and did nothind when the same sister then walked to the parking area behind the seafood restaurant,paused,and then got in (and the hatchback was a David Matthews company car,with the logo and all that all over it)and deliberately raised her left hand, tentatively even, and showed me her wedding ring. I was already more than half sure by then- something about the way she had walked to the car- and i knew as soon as she showed me her ring before driving away, that she at least had no trouble with understanding that it was not walking past me, being petulant or excitable, that impressed me, but a sober acceptance of the fact that as she was she was totally unacceptable to me, but that everything depended on my mood and my acceptance of her humility. Though i like her...younger sister... I would kill her in an instant if she came anywhere near me with her atention- grabbing ways,because i can NOT stand someone who blinds herself to the truth of things and does not accept the fact that SHE is what is spoiling my day. Coz i am in two minds about her, and, of course, BOTH sisters had better be estranged from their.. husbands, or i will be very unhappy. Very very unhappy. Because any other way would make it impossible for me to be able to accept them and their ways as well as accept the ... standard bearing ten that are the ' ten million dollars' that set the tone for ...acceptability. of course, then there are the facts that even the Dutch girl and the employment chick are going to have to lose their.. fellow-country people, except maybe for immediate female family that is above 9 since every dutch and english person,evev irish or whatever, will die, wherever. Same as here where only immediate female family will survive to go to europe, while the only black peolple from this country will be this zulu guy, vinnie and family and those such as are close to him,as well as abisha, and my stupid cousin, his sister and such as i know of my family thatare here. The rest die. These that live will be safe as long as they remain, for the duration of my stay on earth, within the boundaries of Zimbabwe, and as long as the treatment given my immediate family is sterling. Tsvangirai dies as well as his followers, because i hate their policies, and the silly deal called politics. Atleast with no white people around there will be no food shortages, and Zibabwe will be the ONLY country in the world that will have animals and whatever remaing, everywhere else will have my choice of creatures. Whatever remains after i leave will be in the hands of the remainder. If, however there IS sex after i go i would be very surprised, and if there ARE deaths after i leave i would have failed, because i am determined that, as i was a born a day after my mother in the calendar year, then i would die as well if she dies.So i have to find a way around that, see? Then leave.