Government Thor: Cape Flats
...to him who orders his conduct aright I will show the salvation of Godhad just been fulfilled, and laughing at myself for my...presumption.
Because what matters MOST to me is not that I am in charge, but rather that I could find women I could appreciate that I could ...tolerate... and thus open my heart up to, because otherwise I would never let anyone come near me, and I would end up just going on a rampage and harming whoever tried to come close.
So, what has motivated me, all this time, has been a need for women who would be able to bridge the barrier of my...intolerance... and be ...SAFE with me, to whom I could reveal myself as I am; not particularly a NEED to make a home for myself, since they all say 'home is where the heart is', and my heart was locked up in myself, so, of course, the women had to be claimed and gathered to myself.
SO, anyway, fuck you for saying, 'he goes on and on about WOMEN, not woman', but then, that is where the fight with the holy spirit comes in, my refusal to conform because the woman is not a 'helper', but, like Nathan showed David in the parable about the man with a hundred sheep, a woman is more like a lamb, to be nursed and groomed [fuck they call husbands 'bride-grooms' and even to 'husband' is to care form and make fruitful]
Anyway, that was one thing solved, but what got me laughing my head off was the fact that, as I was walking away to sleep, the 'seven and three' thing came to its fruition, and I thought, OK, at least God would never be boring:
because you all know by now that people used to write from right to left, and the first letter of the first alphabet was the letter 'aleph', which is a pictogram of a man scattering seed, and is actually used to represent, 'father', with an 'exhaled' breathe to show that the origins of everything was God, how He took things out of Himself, like a person breathing out, yes?
Or maybe you do not know that, because to you God is somewhere up there, and to reach Him you go through Christ, Muhammed or...Obama!
Anyway, to order one's conduct 'aright', as far as God is concerned is to peg for oneself what one wants FIRST, take steps in THAT direction, and THEN proceed to step two and such.
So, I wanted nothing done till I had pegged for myself women who would satisfy EVERY one of my needs, both past, present, future, and, guess what, when one reads the number 73 from a 'right' perspective, i.e., from the point of view of a person who knows from where things originate, one is actually, in this day and age, saying 'thirty seven'.
Point?
God, Who sees what is, what was, and what will come, knew that the day would come when I would say, fuck, no more women, I have everyone that I could possibly need, and these I will take care of... and then move on to phase two, pulling down all 'powers and principalities' that make me... unhappy as a person.
That said, though, since it is MY life, I still have to say, I really STILL would prefer that every other woman was blocked for the time being till Nicky?'s mother shows her true colours, because hell, I am really interested in HER, and anyone else at this point and time would be offensive.
I have been able to deduce that the voice was necessary to distinguish between women and women, so that I could tell easily which would suit me, since I do not have to ask God to make something new, but just re-arrange the things already there, but, regardless of the voice, I have wondered what would happen if someone knew what I said, saw me on the street as I was; a walking contradiction:- would she laugh at me or would she treat me different?
Wanted someone who would treat me without taking anything for granted, and hell, her response to what I was on about got me to realise that there exists at least one woman whose worth can not be measured.
Now, though, I wonder if the women will come to their senses or if they will make the cardinal mistake of trying to look past me, or over me, to God, when the buck stops with me.
that would make me very unhappy indeed. Very unhappy indeed!
Then there is the other matter, of people like Obama, and the seething fury they have invoked in me.They MUST pay, without delay, because what can not bend must be broken, and things have gone beyond negotiation stage!
