I have never felt more like holding on to a woman than I did with her, the moment I saw her stand and, instead of even fixing me with a glare, just stare into the distance as if to say that I was using a different scale for her and every other woman I was going on about.
which is why I wanted to find out what mattered the most to her, and I wrote the post that came before this one.
Because I wanted to find out whether she was reluctant to come out in the open because I would force her to neglect her daughters or whether her daughters had kids themselves.
When I left for the day, though, she surprised me by driving past again, and I said to myself, hell with it, whatever anyone may think about it, I am not going to mix her with some worthless people who just come on someone else's shoulders.
I want her, and as I saw her daughters BEFORE her, they are safe, just as butt-head is UNSAFE because he made the mess between us BEFORE she was involved [still stands, the only way I will let him LIVE is if he leaves for Zimbabwe and that way I will not let him die by my hand... and I STILL would like to have her prepare a place where she and I could get acquainted...her house is out of the question, for obvious reasons... but then again WHY should it be? Fuck, fuck butt-head, I want her at HER place!]
Anyway, I was regretting my uncharacteristic generosity and turning and tossing the matter in my mind when help came from an unexpected source [that was still during the day].
Family pulls up at the shop and they want some key-rings that I made, fashioned like letters of the alphabet.
In the midst of them is this pretty blonde chick, and the rest are... not up to scratch.
She wants a key ring of the letter 'A' and when there is no change, I leave the guy who is better at negotiations than me to keep them unruffled while I hunt for change.
I bump into them on my way back; they have decided to buy something else from the change, and I was asking myself, 'what if the family of the women I have allowed near me are just as...unpalatable?
And I react by rejecting them?
No, it would be best to keep to what I have prepared MYSELF to accept, because, you see, I have never been able to wait on someone else's terms and conditions.
If something is out of MY control, I always ignore it, and focus on what I can control.
So, the 36 women come as is. The only addition is the young girl who bought my key-rings!
Now, about that kiss from Nicky?'s mother...or is it Nicky? Well, Buju Banton's lyrics [clear the advertisements on video to see them] say it all:
