I thought, at first I could put the blame of the scared women on the... voice... but just this past Saturday, I was talking to some guy I am on friendly terms with, and he is a reflexologist, meaning he finds ways of letting the human body channel its own energy to heal itself, and he told me about this guy he used to rent property from in his more prosperous days, who invited him to come to a 'healing' session, where the people would discover the limits of their...'aura'.
Now, the guy had been saying that everyone has his own 'aura' which is approximately his own height, but thrown about as a ring around the person, and everyone 'aware' can feel it when he or she 'enters' that zone.
Now, let me ask you: say God made me the way He did, and then saw that something was ...missing, since I am the only person alive who, because I had no illusions about anything from birth, I am at risk of being entangled with people who assume that I am, like them, busy disguising my true nature to fit in, and they invade my 'personal space', and all this awareness on God's part is predicated on His knowledge that the only way to have me DO anything is for me to grasp it for myself... do you not think He would carefully steer me the same way He tried to steer Adam; to 'MAKE' me a helper suitable for me?Because what I effectively ASKED God, when one looks at it honestly, was that he make me a 'personal space' ten million times more... awesome ...than that of any other person, so that anyone who...entered it could FEEL that there was something more to me than anyone expected, and they would react in the weird ways that they have, because, you see, what is REALLY impressive about me is NOT the 'helper', the voice, but rather the physical part of me... THAT is what people should fear!
So, that said, I can confidently conclude that the 'being' busy trying to get me to be... real... limited... is the holy spirit, and he is the one who has been putting me down, and that angry 'voice' that asked me why I wanted to get to Turkey was maybe an angel...
OK, that seems crazy, but have you ever tried to kill yourself, and in broad daylight NOT seen any result?
Or any of the things that I have done? Spend a day in my shoes and THEN tell me what is weird or not!Another thing, when I told God to kill me, He said He would be pleased if I gave the holy spirit no rest, so that is what I have decided to do, make him start backing off BIG time, because you see, there will be no END to my increase.
Now, last night, on the internet, while going through Sam's facebook account, I saw under "Close Friends" this chick with a small baby [white] whom I had met before, and while I thought about HER as I focused on the one in Canada, my nemesis was telling me that she has nowhere to put the kid, so forget it, and so I will NOT.
I want HER, so that both near and far Sam will know I am making him a fool, and shaking my finger at him, saying, tsk, tsk, little man, you really SHOULD NOT have made me MAD, so that he would remember that till he dies; while I focus on the holy spirit.
Then there is this nearby chick who reminds me of Paula, but she has blonde hair, and as I walked now into the cafe, she was greeting a workmate at this restaurant, and after the workmate had gone in, she remained standing there and looked my way, but her smile froze on her lips.
Put it down to my ragged appearance, because I was preparing myself to actually smile at her, but I stared anyway, admiring the cleft chin and going, mmm, and I passed her, and she did not respond to my mumbled 'good morning', and I thought, well, fuck you, and went on.
Till I heard the same lines,
been caught in compromising situationsAnd I realised that the holy spirit was telling me who was... acceptable.
So, because he says she is not, I will take her.
And Diane Kruger, who played as Helen of Troy, because of obvious megalomaniac reasons.
By the way, unless I am mistaken, ...or rather let me put it this way, is her mother's name ALSO Nicky?, because I am having trouble making ends meet here!
Then there is the 'chewing her nails' girl.
Now, about that exit!
would NOW be an acceptable time to bring it up? Hope so, because I would be disappointed to have any other solution than that, in 7 days, I would be king of the only state in the USA that is NOT united to the other states... and let us talk about the weather as well, because, well, I would not like to sneeze a lot.
Want to watch the Northern Hemisphere sunset WITHOUT the snow and howling wind!But I would hate to have the women get suntans, I mean, why be called white when you are 'brown'?
Like Achilles with Agamemnon, I want, before my time is done; to look at the corpse of THIS filthy sack of wine...the holy spirit... and smile, because he would be no more!Preferably by MY hand!
