told him to back off, but little fool kept on yammering. Punched the wall in anger then I went for him, and had to restrain myself from mangling him.
people sometimes dont know how ... near... I see their deaths in my eyes, and the asshole kept on talking till I smashed up stuff, walked off then came back for my daily pittance.
because if today is the last day I operate on the net... for the forseeable future, I may as well make it worth my while, yess?
I refuse to go back to the public library.
Man gotta have some... dignity.
Anyway, thing is, I guess now would be the time to call those ten women to myself, and ...leave.
not really impressed by anything I have seen so far, but then I never am, but it COULD have been better.
fuck it, life always keeps messing round with me. reminds me of this song by this lady India Ari?... well she goes on aboutyou win you lose you fall but still you play the game
and when you learn the rules you learn the rules have changed
I never worry coz I know just who I am
my peace I found in the eyes of a hurricane
but you see the lyrics, right?
Anyway, from my own...viewpoint, things could be...worse!
I could be a Christian, a millionaire, and married to Michelle Pereira, who would probably want me to pray before we even have sex, or maybe regulate it to certain days of the week!
trust me, I could never DO that.
Have you ever heard the "Pentecostals" or "Charismatics" {euphemisms for holy-spirit-violated} going on as they pray in... tongues?
shikanda rava soma rava hai rororororo,
and they are so... GRAVE when they do it I can not help but laugh.
Should get a mirror one day and just see oneself as one says those things!!
Hey, I speak not of things I do not know... God DID call me THE Maverick, and I dabbled into all those things till I said to myself...this is stupid!
All those gyrations and the fools do not know that the holy spirit worked out that people respond more to the subliminal... i.e., the motion... more than to words, because the motion conveys the... tone... of the message being delivered.
So, when one is 'in the spirit' the holy spirit would actually be trying to make a person bend in some way to his whim by directing the person to mime out certain things which he [said spirit] deems to be 'necessary' for the person to progress more to be under his power.
Sooner or later the message gets across, but because the spirit is blind to people... in that he was NOT involved when either the man or the woman was made... in the actual making process... some basic things are foreign to him, which is why he always 'fights' people, as God said he would not always strive with man, because he, said spirit, is but dust.
So, right now, the reason why I did not give in to my... nature...was because I was not sure all along if I would be falling under his influence or not by doing as I please. Now, I have spent a whole year, alone, sorting through things and getting to the bottom of everything, and I am ready to take him on and take over, because one thing I discovered is the fool does not know what I am thinking at any one time.
He has learned to gauge from my body movements sometimes and come to certain conclusions, and all along, while he was busy doing his analysis and jumping in with his four cents worth, I have gradually realised that he really doesn't know me, and that is a great comfort, because he will NEVER be able to anticipate me. Which makes me a person with a whole arsenal of aces up my sleeve.
Good!
Now I take over, yes?
YESSS!!!
