Thats IT? That sucks!!

So I wake up in the morning expecting [OK, not really!] a flood and my name 'known' everywhere, uncomfortable as that may be, since, well, I am not really equipped to handle publicity... and I get NOTHING!I am about to ask pointed questions, because there is nothing else but God's word keeping me from going on total destruct, and like Wreckage in "GI Joe Extreme" come out of it with nobody else alive, because, believe it or not, somehow that part about me being able to...DIE can only happen if I STOP being me, which I would like to do, if it could cause the maximum damage, but some things can not change, right.

( see at the fifteen second part of the intro to GI Joe Extreme, the guy with the bared teeth and bionic arm... that is WRECKAGE, guy who9 used to be normal till he had an...alteration that made him part monster, part indestructible... the story sounds hauntingly familiar)

So, it turns out that what the 'known to everyone part' meant was that everyone in Butt-head's circle would know me, and I thought, Fuck this, THAT is what it was all about?

I get "September 18: Independence Day" and THAT talks about a woman?
Now it is all about my being 'revealed' to an arsehole I would very much LOVE to tear apart and bring this whole sorry business to a head and bust some heads and get things over with so I can grapple the one who ..VIOLATED me and have him by the throat!
AHHHHHH!!!

Yet, when you get right down to it, God did say that it would not be quite a good idea for me to remain physically alone, because even the ... 'helper'... he gave me gets on my nerves, and grates my teeth, because if I could shake him off [because I never asked for him, fuck I never asked for anything, except that God would leave me alone to die, so I could have no need to make an effort to  separate enemies from... dependants... people crazy enough to even want to have anything to do with me]

I am so full of HATE, and such fierce ANGER that no one has any idea just how much I have taken, and kept on taking, and how I itch to deal with the holy spirit, and get right to bare knuckles with him!!!

But, of course, my anger can not forget my own mother, so, I suppose that, so as not to have it spill over to her, and every woman, there is NEED for some ... consolation, and if THESE are not up to scratch, I can and will kill them, and carry on killing,because once I start with dealing with people, physically, I will get... attached to the idea of the feel of bones breaking, and I will learn to enjoy it, very much, because I have a very THIN line of tolerance, and will snap at any instant.

But the flood thing MUST be on time, or I WILL DO something!

GRRR!!!