When I finally worked it out, I said to Him, "HELL NO! That is NOT going to happen!"
But, this is... My Friend... the ONLY One... I trust with... everything..., and what He meant had a lot to go for it, too!
So, here is the deal: it begins with me... or Him... pondering whether I really want to go to Zimbabwe some day soon, to which I find the answer is, surprisingly enough, yes.
I miss being in a place where my own language is bandied back and forth, and where people indulge in verbal re-constructions of normally un-usual words, and I miss just being... one of many.
True: I know myself, and one thing I will never be able to do is to keep my temper in check, and everything would spill out, so, that may mean I turn, violent... so, I would go, but stay out of her way.
Yeah, right! Me, Mr I-know-no-boundaries... being, circumspect? Pigs would fly.
Ok, so, since only I can stop myself from being...violent, how about I get myself a... deterrent that I would recognise and stop me from being... berserk!
Such as?
The ten women God tricked me into calling. OK, I can not go WITH them, but maybe just the thought of them would keep me from going apeshit!(Driving no less than a US Humvee, or H1, from a US B2, if it can fit!)
Maybe!
OK, so, let us say, impossible as it appears, what if butt-head decides to run to Zimbabwe and stays there, and you come; will you look him up?
definitely, and as for killing him, definitely as well, because there is, even at the moment NOTHING that is keeping me from deealing with him except for my ... curiosity about what You... [I mean, God]... intends.
And lets face it, even the ten women would not have anything to say against THAT!
Again, right! I am a black man, and if I were to see a white guy unloading on a fellow black man, though the black man be guilty of murder, I WILL take it personally. The women may not SAY anything, but it would be all there.And would surface one day or the other, knowing women!
So, how do I, if, basically I want to get laid, keep FROM throwing the cat out with the dirty water?
Well, take the one person who WOULD deter you from killing the son of a... umm!
The MOTHER? Are You crazy? She would not approach me with a ten foot pole! Ok, so maybe she and I have nothing against each other personally, and I find her, surprisingly [because even up to now I can NOT account for my intense... desire for her] sexy, but... well OK, so I have NOTHING against her, so she would not be a... threat... fine.
But still doesnt account for her Daughter!
So, Nicky? and I have a past, and I frankly can not stand being in the same place with a person that I have something against, and I would clearly... having no inhibitions... end up doing something about it... and THERE goes sex.
Which is why God slyly showed me her profile BEFORE I saw her... other sister... and how He kept 100 steps ahead, because the sister has a cute ass, and I am a sucker for cute behinds, and she looks like her sister in the... pronounced nose department... so, if she was THERE, then I would hardly want to do something to someone who reminded me of someone that was somewhere close and had nowhere near the something that made me want the other someone far away... somewhat!
So, I asked The Almighty God just what He was REALLY driving at; because He was technically saying I do NOTHING to anyone, and so what, let them walk all over me? Like I will just let Michelle waltz on... OK, so there are THOSE 10 women... the other ones... but will any of the women RESPECT me?
Fuck, in their shoes I would probably say, "Dont pay any attention to him. God has him tied up in an unbreakable bond. We can relax and just have fun".
I see me having NO fun whatsoever, and THAT pisses me off.
Even if I tried to get my revenge on the black guys that pissed me off, it would have... racial... implications all over.
What then?
What the ---- do You expect of me, Father? Want me to resign ALL control of ALL this... physical stuff... to You? Have You do the killing? Your own way?
Fine, bring them to me, then! all 22 of them
Fine then, Most High God. I give it into Your hands, and will focus on... constructive stuff, like... I dont know: You mean I get to kill NO ONE?
Well, spare me some wild animals then. I will eat meat till the... rage... subsides.
Fuck it all!
becoz the crazy world we living in
Because the youth them life in the city
...
Blood again
who violate the youth as they are patch up their hand
Fire fir the wicked fire fir the heathen
As the ghetto youth rise they try to keep him down again!
Cant say I love this WAY of life... NO NO NO
