"Plan ahead in 2013
When Noah built the ark it was not raining"
When Noah built the ark it was not raining"
at this pre-school with the name Ardenne Gardens on the main road.
Of course I can not let go the implicit connection of that statement to what I am facing: and the vision which prompted michelle, last year, this day... or yesterday... to tell me that I must be realistic and that everything to do with man and woman is consensual and that she had been put in my life by the holy spirit to stop me in my tracks and I should, in effect fuck off and stop blaming her for putting my life on hold.
An ark where there is no rain. A flying ark with wings... correction, ONE visible wing... on the near side, which drew out as it flew over Noah's ark, the flat-topped rock that juts out of the sea near Boulders Beach.
Something superior, then, to the ... usual. Something ABOVE the norm, that overshadows the hard ... landmark.
And I asked to... build it, with "ten million dollars" from God.
What went on there?
ten million dollars, US will be about , what RSA R80m?. But that can not be it, because I turned away from money before, so God would not wait ALL this long so that He could give me more money than I had rejected, even though THEN it was probably worth more than now.
So, I guess the answer lies in the implications of money: money determines the relative 'worth' of something, and ten million is NOT something to be sneered at, unless that is in pre-2010 Zimbabwe, where you needed billions of dollars at one time to buy bread.
So, I ASKED, [under God's direction to ask HIM:- sounds too pre-arranged till one factors in the way God put it:- He did NOT say, "What do you want from Me, but rather "TELL ME what you want, meaning that I KNOW what I wanted but did not think I had a right to SAY it to Him, not then] for, effectively a change from my being worth nothing to being someone worth... a lot.
So that it would help me how?
Well considering that I had started off, before falling asleep, by complaining that I was sitting down doing nothing except being tied down by a woman who was not even someone who would make my penis go erect without major effort, and living worse than a hog, I guess I was asking that God would do something so that I would not be looked down by anyone anymore.
I asked Him, therefore, to make me a... king. Now the Aramaic for ark can also mean 'palace', so I was asking for the power to MAKE something that would not tie me down to the earth, something that would dominate everything else that was taken as immovable, and eclipse it.
I was asking God for dominion, over everything, which is the ONLY way I had figured out long back would enable me to prosper in this world. I had reached that conclusion long back, as I said, but I wondered if God would take it that far, because although He had seemed to want me to honuor Him above christ and the holy spirit, yet it seemed that He was letting them walk all over me, and I had no idea if He would ever lift even an eyebrow when they carried on trampling me in the dust.
Yet HEhad said "Let Us make man Who is not of the same nature as Us, but still a Copy of Us, and ... LET them have dominion..."
Now the first part means He was speaking to Himself, because He certainly did not have to say 'hey, out of the way' to anyone in order to make a man from the dust, but the last part means He was speaking in a futuristic way, since the man was not even there yet, ... so, the man had to 'acquire' dominion; it was NOT automatic, and the fact that He said, let THEM have dominion means that THEY would already be existant and then have to work for their dominion.
So, I asked God, in effect, for just that. To make me overlord, because my problem was not just the woman, it was, basically EVERYTHING that makes the world go round right now: It makes life difficult for me. The ONLY way I can ever be myself in everything is to be lord of everything, and take over everything.
I am therefore pleased that it was not just about women, since God had deliberately turned an indifferent eye to all my dealings with women before this.
It would have been heart-rending to have Him start commenting on women NOW when I was ready to focus on the whole picture!
Of course I can not let go the implicit connection of that statement to what I am facing: and the vision which prompted michelle, last year, this day... or yesterday... to tell me that I must be realistic and that everything to do with man and woman is consensual and that she had been put in my life by the holy spirit to stop me in my tracks and I should, in effect fuck off and stop blaming her for putting my life on hold.
An ark where there is no rain. A flying ark with wings... correction, ONE visible wing... on the near side, which drew out as it flew over Noah's ark, the flat-topped rock that juts out of the sea near Boulders Beach.
Something superior, then, to the ... usual. Something ABOVE the norm, that overshadows the hard ... landmark.
And I asked to... build it, with "ten million dollars" from God.
What went on there?
ten million dollars, US will be about , what RSA R80m?. But that can not be it, because I turned away from money before, so God would not wait ALL this long so that He could give me more money than I had rejected, even though THEN it was probably worth more than now.
So, I guess the answer lies in the implications of money: money determines the relative 'worth' of something, and ten million is NOT something to be sneered at, unless that is in pre-2010 Zimbabwe, where you needed billions of dollars at one time to buy bread.
So, I ASKED, [under God's direction to ask HIM:- sounds too pre-arranged till one factors in the way God put it:- He did NOT say, "What do you want from Me, but rather "TELL ME what you want, meaning that I KNOW what I wanted but did not think I had a right to SAY it to Him, not then] for, effectively a change from my being worth nothing to being someone worth... a lot.
So that it would help me how?
Well considering that I had started off, before falling asleep, by complaining that I was sitting down doing nothing except being tied down by a woman who was not even someone who would make my penis go erect without major effort, and living worse than a hog, I guess I was asking that God would do something so that I would not be looked down by anyone anymore.
I asked Him, therefore, to make me a... king. Now the Aramaic for ark can also mean 'palace', so I was asking for the power to MAKE something that would not tie me down to the earth, something that would dominate everything else that was taken as immovable, and eclipse it.
I was asking God for dominion, over everything, which is the ONLY way I had figured out long back would enable me to prosper in this world. I had reached that conclusion long back, as I said, but I wondered if God would take it that far, because although He had seemed to want me to honuor Him above christ and the holy spirit, yet it seemed that He was letting them walk all over me, and I had no idea if He would ever lift even an eyebrow when they carried on trampling me in the dust.
Yet HEhad said "Let Us make man Who is not of the same nature as Us, but still a Copy of Us, and ... LET them have dominion..."
Now the first part means He was speaking to Himself, because He certainly did not have to say 'hey, out of the way' to anyone in order to make a man from the dust, but the last part means He was speaking in a futuristic way, since the man was not even there yet, ... so, the man had to 'acquire' dominion; it was NOT automatic, and the fact that He said, let THEM have dominion means that THEY would already be existant and then have to work for their dominion.
So, I asked God, in effect, for just that. To make me overlord, because my problem was not just the woman, it was, basically EVERYTHING that makes the world go round right now: It makes life difficult for me. The ONLY way I can ever be myself in everything is to be lord of everything, and take over everything.
I am therefore pleased that it was not just about women, since God had deliberately turned an indifferent eye to all my dealings with women before this.
It would have been heart-rending to have Him start commenting on women NOW when I was ready to focus on the whole picture!
I said to Him, in effect, give me some 'self -worth' so that I can be boss, and THAT is what happened:- He gradually opened my eyes to make me see just WHAT I was, to Him and to myself, and therefore, to the world. So, I guess one can say that since the 10th last year, king Uziiah has been dying, and is now totally dead! YESSS!
