Small change versus Big change

God is a God of 'thin' violence

I had rejected certain people for good because of the fact that the ONE person I never pay attention to in terms of words is... me... because what I tend to think can vary  at any time.

So, based on THAT, and the fact that I wrote something... who knows what?, that caused a big surprise when it comes to something to be 'picked and paid for', on Sunday 22 October, 2013, and that the someone who had been so astonished was a mother, I had made what I conclude now, is an erroneous conclusion.

Now, I have long since complained that michelle, when she saw me, saw a potential babysitter for her child.What I may not have said was the fact that I wrote to her several times, because I wanted to keep myself from killing her, to drop her child in favour of me, and that, I conclude, is where ANOTHER mother came in, her friend, nicky?, who not only felt for her friend, but, in the nature of these things, decided to take it as if she herslef was the injured party, because nothing else explains her involvement and her two attempts to confront me.

apparently, to her, the guy who gets the girl with a child has to take the child as well, because the guy must somehow pay for not only what the guy before did, but also what he could NOT do, and thus, he must 'pick, bear, and pay for' the child.

Silly me, right?

only problem with that scenario is that I never wanted michelle to begin with, and I tried to fob her off a long time, and she would not take even the broadest hint, and now, she MUST die, just as her friend MUST die as well.

Now, funny thing is, while jesus had to wrestle for control of the earth, and walk on water and also have to speak to calm the wind, I DO NOT have to do any of those things, because I will lay the command and I will be obeyed without any prevarication or need to establish any kind of pre-dominance... in other words, I will speak and have it happen without having to break mountains to prove my point, so, even if THESE two run off to the end of the earth in the meantime, wherever they are, the earth will either crush them, swallow them, or suffocate them, whichever is convenient, the very day I depart for Alaska, and set the huge tidal wave over the whole of the False bay area.

WHY?

because I want to.

Because the  women pissed me off and with me, even if they had a BIG change of heart and saw me in a different light, there is NO forgiveness, because they both saw me as a person who must be... used... to pay for the fact that the one before, whom they could not retain, left them with the burdens of kids.
so, the look down on me anyway, and even if they cahnged tactics, everything they did would be based on that basic assumption; the man must look after someone else's kid.

So, it will not fly with me.

because I do ONLY what suits me, and leaves no one else with a handle on me.

if i look after a girl, it is for my futeure enjoyment, and never to satisfy some arse-hole of a woman's need for revenge on men.

I do not bear anyone's burdens.

I do only what suits me, and never what makes someone else comfortable.

which brings me to the mother of nicky?, who, if I am right, is facing the deaths of three kids, and a granddaughter... and even her own death if she can not find high ground in time, that is, if i do not take her with me.

I ahd assumed she was the one so... overcome... but then, God had already said there would be a small change... for two people... on Sunday the 22nd of October, so, I assume she is one of the two?

because if she had stopped being a concerned mother, she would not have carried on trying to get me to stop wanting the deaths of her kids, and the fact is, the day i wrote that if she ever messed with anything I did ever again, or tried to intervene or show sides with any of her kids, I would kill HER, well, she stopped showing up at her daughter's workplace... at least in the Ballade, which means that she seems to pay attention to what I say.

But the time for vacillating is gone.

Fcuk, I AM going to murder butt-head, kill him with my bare hands, and then her daughter nicky i will leave to my domain, as well as her daughter's friend, but I want their deaths to be gruesome.
Then, if little-chunky navy boy IS her other son [well, she would have to have been a busy woman, I did  not think white people had so many sprogs] then I will kill him as well, and also moto mia [didnt think I had forgotten the finger, hey] and faggot face, and sam, kenneth et.c..

so, someone may say that I ought to do people favours since I have decided that my... friends... can go to Zimbabwe, but that will NOT happen.
These guys go home because they have in their ways suffered as I have, the oppression that is rampant here, and it would suit me very well, to have pepople that may parents can later see in the flesh as people who have knbown what it feels like to be around the angriest man alive... and live through it.
But as for even the women who are coming... let me just say that I have no inclination to let even their sons or daughters that I have not seen nor accepted have any place with me, or even bother about their well-being.
they will take their chances with the weather.
i will neither issue a word regarding them nor listen to any appeals.
ONLY those I have accepted will be with me, and even THEY, if they do not like the terms and conditions, are free to take their chances ... without... me, and die like the rest.
I will not negotiate there, not for anyone or WITH anyone.

which means, if there ARE five women, and personally I can only count three:-
Allison, nicky?'s mom and her daughter with that... ass [she HAS one],
and the two are doubtful, well, then, I have a problem there.

unless of course that is to include michelle's sister? the one who came to the library? well, she does not look all that bad, and again, she does not have michelle's teeth, so, if she is one, then...mmm!
Of course, the last one is ... fuck this, I give up!

this is insane;- I am going to kill family and friends of these women and so, I may as well scratch them all off!

even if the women did not have a bad attitude towards me to begin with.
maybe butt-head's mom has another daughter, the one in the one pice long shirt/short dress, ah well, fuck that, THEY choose for themselves!

I am ready to just explode now, and restructure the world. yessss!