be still and know that I am God
Be still and know that I am God
be still and know that I am God
I am the LORD that healeth thee...
But, it was only when He had got to the part about healing that I even paid attention, and wondered what He was up to.Then, for some time after, He started inserting the very same lyrics over and over again of the words by Sizzla, in the song Jah Llove[ God's love]
love your life
remember not to indulge in no war and strife
And of course, I was getting skeptical, more and more.Then, it must have ben monday, since this was linked to the library, and I had not been going there or thinking of it from Friday,that He then did an HUD and a whisper into my mind:-
Unseen Academicals
Which is the title of a book by Terry Pratchett, and yesterday, after posting all the previous bullshit, and making my conclusion about just who the... nicky ... vision was all about, I, after seeing the st-peters woman's daughter come in and go out-maybe making her presence felt- decided to sit and read a book, and the first choice was, of course, the Wizard Knight, but I found it heavy going when some guy commented on how many pages there were, and so, I decided to switch to...something lighter, and started re-reading Unseen Academicals, as God had pointed out.
And go to the point where the wizards were anxiously awaiting the arrival of this gorgeous serving girl, with 187different types of cheese, or somthing, with the girl herslef being the mainattrcation.
only SHE did not show up, but some other girl, her friend, because she had gone to see a football match.
So, I got the drift, and realised that I had decided on the ... wrong... woman.
that there was someone else who was standing in an aisle, with a baby with her, who was furious with me because she thought I was only interested in her when I had nothing to do, and so, I confess, I tried it out various ways, to see who, and the conclusions were NOT the type to get me ina good mood.
So, I woke up, and being excessively hungry, having had nothing but bread in the mornign sincve I had mislaid my loose change in the... place.. where i am staying and having forgotten about it till I was in Fish Hoek, I decided to look for bread at the tuck shop near inkfish, and it was closed, so i went to the olympia bakery, got something to mucnh on and started w lking to the library, and it was on my way there that I saw the contemporray art woman following behind, and she passed me, went into Fish Hoek and then drove back, and I was...well, smitten, because of the way she looked so sorrowful and could be seen to be trying to keep a brave face on it, even when she looked away as she passed me, and yet gave me the chance to see her with her hair down.
Well, the women IS stunning, and I admit that, when weighed against any of butt-head's family, she comes out tops. I do NOT have to waste my time thinking about revenge, because frankly I am NOT even going to kill anyone personally.I will not engage even in any of that. I have someone to do it for me, and I do not even have to worry about being... covered... by God, but I will be compeltely healed, because now I KNOW that it was NOT an insult that God made when He ... gave ... me those twenty-od females.
i mean, I am a depressed person that is afraid of people, a person that never grew up and never leasrned how to adapt, a person so lost among people that I would never know which way is up if left to myself, so what will I do? Try to get better women? Hell no. THESE women that saw when there was time to see are the ones that I will keep, and the other thing that would have worried the hell out of me, the fact that I said that ten of the women were the...'ten million dollars' ...meaning I would have been tied to them was so not true, but rather, what I asked God for was a sense of ... self... worth, and you will find that I was judging and weighing these women as I saw fit, from the word go, and it was not just about them being perspicacious, but about me forgetting how I am a worthless 'happy valley boy' that should be sent home, as michelle and butthead said.
no, I will NOT personally kill them, but true, just as I can NOT stand to have my mother alive when I become known, so I can NOT stand to have these people that I hate remain alive to wtness my rise.
THEY will all die and go straight to hell the same moment that I empty the rest of the continent, as will obama, and his deputy, and all that will be left is the secretary of state to remove her poople to china, and well, i will not pay THEM any more attention-in fact I am retiring from public eye-view - till I leave, and i will take my women with me, and what is left behind will be destroyed.
So, that means I will leave with supposedly, twenty seven women, that I have decided on and like and would like to keep, yes?with five or six of them already being congnisant of the fact?
Well, WHO are they, these women?
Frankly, I would have liked the contemporary at woman -is it deja-vu or did I say that before- but she is MARRIED and involved with someone, and unless I am mistaken, that is a no-no, unless she hasd some kind of explanation that tells me that appearances are not what is there, and if she has a child and is NOT interested in relinquishing it to its doom, then I am really NOT going to be very... accepting then, am I?
However she has THIS in her favour, that when I wanted to kill her, God said everytime I thought about it that to do so would be to seal my own doom, because apparently I do CARE what happens to her. Should have seen her face the day she first drive up past me and then shook her head after I had said she was unsitable. It was heartbreaking. So, I NEED something to help me extend a hand of mercy to her. Because I like everything about her, the person.
then there is, of course, the 'suspected' virgin who I thought was not really interested till yesterday when I saw her walk in, with her... little brother? The chick whose mother wanted me to go to church.
Then there is th girl with her nicole kidman face.
And the one who came to the library and I tried to fit in the fact that she had a ring on her 'fuck you' finger on her right hand, with the fact that she was the contemporary art woman's replacement, even though that was not even remotely the case, because the two are as alike, or as opposite- as water and a picture of the thinking man. Cant compare any of them.
then there is the sexy intelligent chick.
And since I am looking at girls here, and am not intyerested in having something to do with either the losers inS/Town nor hard-to-handle women, I am sure that, if she will...eh... overlook my words about stuff -I tend to be very confused, paranoid, and am really out of my depth with people- the red-head who freaked me out.
I suppose those are it, but if I am wrong, then God will supply ... replacements... but I guess that I am done.
I am not and have never been, able to intentionally seek out people to harm them personally for my good, but as anyone will acvknowledge, there is now no other option but for SOMETHING to be done about everything, and as God said to me before, I choose what kind of world I want, and what I wnt is to be left alone and to have people around me thatcare for me, and look up to me and so will not be overwhelmed when they see things such as they have never thought of before, as i do the imposible, in a practical way.
like making a 'home' that is not as other spaceships where there is zero-gravity, but whre one is as on terra firma, but which itself can repel other moving bodies, like anti-gravity, and which uses a... heithertoe unknown form of fuel.
THAT is right up my alley.
That is me.
As for the rest; I never could focus on people. Look at how far I have strayed in being me, so far, This is why God promised "he was not, for God took him", and so, He has whisked me away.
Now, I hope butt-head's mom gets the hint and stays out of my way. Her kids and her are dead, so fuck it, do not make me strangle you!
