"v ε l os" and the dream that came with it, is what probably got the ball rolling, either because it was not that difficult to work out that I could re-arrange the letters and have 'solve' or "solvε" and that this, because there was something to do with speed, ['velos'=>velocity???] was the reason I was moving slow, and I had to... reverse... things??OK already, I will begin with this from the top, OK? I was still at happy valley home, just before christmas, knowing that my truculence in trying to get my papers 'sorted' was going to get me kicked out, b ut determined that I would NOT be legally made into a citizen of SA.
When I had this dream, rather appropriate in the circumstances since it took place in the office of the happy valley manager, cindy dollery, and it seemed she had me under interogation, and was holding a DVD case with two overlapping disks in it, the kind where the disks form a figure '8' [eight=>sounds like afrikaans 'uit'= out => figure '8' = figure OUT???] and she was asking why I was carrying on like arnold swazenegger when I was more like a resident called bruce. and the funny thing was that I 'saw' the then governor of the richest state in the US and he seemed sickly, like he had a 'wasting disease' and had mucuos running out of his nose, and his neck was all stretched as white people who have spent a lifetime denying the frailties of their bodies become when they start giving in, and this guy bruce ws also there and he was lying on the floor of the office. (Now,m bruce is a funny character, because some chick who came for some other guy ended up sinking her claws into him and he, from then on, lost his head, and stopped living and started going after this chick, and she has him on the run 24/7.) and I ended up taking the disks and saw on them, 'vεlos'. There, I have simplified it, and left other things out as well.
So, I tried to 'solve' this, and it was that... initial quest... that has led me, NOW, to believe that, even with the spectre of this dream thatis what, all of three years or almost, old, looming over my shoulder, I have found out WHAT I am, what God meant when He riddled me with all those statements, and of course, what comes first in me.
See, before all this, I WAS sure that my life revolved around women, and that I needed to be approved by one, and yet whenever I ended up with one, it would quickly turn sour, and I was beginning to get frayed nereves because NOTHING is as upsetting as NOT having a clue what you are, and so how you will behave in certain circumstances.
Apparently, though, I have dual personalities, and the lesser of the two is the one you are all familiar with, the womanizer, but starnge to say, he is NOT the dominant personality, because if he was, I would be the easiest person in the world to please. Instead, I am likely the worst thing anyone will ever see, and the reason is that the DOMINANT ... me... the FIRST to come out, the one that was meant in "Government Thor: Cape Flats " [are you listening you capetonian idiots] is the ONE that has so far been repressed because I have been seeking death, knowing that he could never have a... place... in this world, or survive as himself.
THIS person is the ONE that is linked to God's... VOICE... and this person is the relentless, ice cold, unremitting, and basically unfeeling super-ego, the one who could NOT resist challenging a sitting US president and could not resist pronouncing death to people who common sense says have more firepower, more 'right', and more... everything... than he does, and going on after these same people and systematically undermining them.
THIS guy is the one who also would NOT let God heal him, but chose instead to have some... middle ground where he was... covered but took on death's fangs himself.
This is the guy who cahnged his name from 'tungamirai' [meaning God-lead] to 'prince' meaning first [so that not even God woule be allowed to be recognised as being ahead of him] EVEN when all things seemed to point against ANY such assumption on his part.
THIS is the guy who 'told' God what he wanted and got women that had no trouble recognising him for who he is, this is the person who was so far in the background that he has had to push himself slowly into the forefront so that even now he is only a hand's breath away from seizing control of the world.
Soon, as I pointed out, as I am ... healed/covered.
And I will have you know, people, I have such an amazing recovery rate that even now I am amazed, myself, because where two or so days ago I could barely walk, and would have to place myself gingerly before I even sat, I have so such trouble now, and I am focused now on only ONE thing; getting out of this dump and troubling the world in a manner thaat no one has ever seen, since I have the biggest ego that has ever been seen, big enough to permit no one and nothing ANY pre-eminence before me.
So, those who worship God, and keep to His ways, are my enemies, because they would put me in the same bracket as themselves, seeking to have me bow down to the same God i regard, at best, with... indifference, and at worst as an... unwanted nuisance.
Those that therefore seek, also, to put me as an equal to themselves, are themselves also in danger because I regard no one as my equal, and while their actions have, till now been things I overlooked, that shall NO longer be the case. First and foremost, as I have been at pains to point out on more than one occasion, I am a judge, and no judge is ever on the same level as those he sentences.
AND I am also phenomenally... strong. Fuck, you will see that.
Now, let me let you in on a secret, or something obvious and so obvious is it that you have not seen it;- I have NOT run after any of the women that have ended up under my scrutiny, and never will I. as for the five that right now are aware of my... posts, well, I will NOT seek to draw you to myself. Come, or go, your choice, but I am leaving, and once everything with me is.. copper-set, I am pronouncing my doom on the world, AND I will have replacements for you all when I get to where I am going, because it is NOT in me to argue with anyone about ... rights.
I am right, always, and what I say goes, difficult to swallow as that may be.
Now, what the hell are you waiting for?
as the song goes
When I had this dream, rather appropriate in the circumstances since it took place in the office of the happy valley manager, cindy dollery, and it seemed she had me under interogation, and was holding a DVD case with two overlapping disks in it, the kind where the disks form a figure '8' [eight=>sounds like afrikaans 'uit'= out => figure '8' = figure OUT???] and she was asking why I was carrying on like arnold swazenegger when I was more like a resident called bruce. and the funny thing was that I 'saw' the then governor of the richest state in the US and he seemed sickly, like he had a 'wasting disease' and had mucuos running out of his nose, and his neck was all stretched as white people who have spent a lifetime denying the frailties of their bodies become when they start giving in, and this guy bruce ws also there and he was lying on the floor of the office. (Now,m bruce is a funny character, because some chick who came for some other guy ended up sinking her claws into him and he, from then on, lost his head, and stopped living and started going after this chick, and she has him on the run 24/7.) and I ended up taking the disks and saw on them, 'vεlos'. There, I have simplified it, and left other things out as well.
So, I tried to 'solve' this, and it was that... initial quest... that has led me, NOW, to believe that, even with the spectre of this dream thatis what, all of three years or almost, old, looming over my shoulder, I have found out WHAT I am, what God meant when He riddled me with all those statements, and of course, what comes first in me.
See, before all this, I WAS sure that my life revolved around women, and that I needed to be approved by one, and yet whenever I ended up with one, it would quickly turn sour, and I was beginning to get frayed nereves because NOTHING is as upsetting as NOT having a clue what you are, and so how you will behave in certain circumstances.
Apparently, though, I have dual personalities, and the lesser of the two is the one you are all familiar with, the womanizer, but starnge to say, he is NOT the dominant personality, because if he was, I would be the easiest person in the world to please. Instead, I am likely the worst thing anyone will ever see, and the reason is that the DOMINANT ... me... the FIRST to come out, the one that was meant in "Government Thor: Cape Flats " [are you listening you capetonian idiots] is the ONE that has so far been repressed because I have been seeking death, knowing that he could never have a... place... in this world, or survive as himself.
THIS person is the ONE that is linked to God's... VOICE... and this person is the relentless, ice cold, unremitting, and basically unfeeling super-ego, the one who could NOT resist challenging a sitting US president and could not resist pronouncing death to people who common sense says have more firepower, more 'right', and more... everything... than he does, and going on after these same people and systematically undermining them.
THIS guy is the one who also would NOT let God heal him, but chose instead to have some... middle ground where he was... covered but took on death's fangs himself.
This is the guy who cahnged his name from 'tungamirai' [meaning God-lead] to 'prince' meaning first [so that not even God woule be allowed to be recognised as being ahead of him] EVEN when all things seemed to point against ANY such assumption on his part.
THIS is the guy who 'told' God what he wanted and got women that had no trouble recognising him for who he is, this is the person who was so far in the background that he has had to push himself slowly into the forefront so that even now he is only a hand's breath away from seizing control of the world.
Soon, as I pointed out, as I am ... healed/covered.
And I will have you know, people, I have such an amazing recovery rate that even now I am amazed, myself, because where two or so days ago I could barely walk, and would have to place myself gingerly before I even sat, I have so such trouble now, and I am focused now on only ONE thing; getting out of this dump and troubling the world in a manner thaat no one has ever seen, since I have the biggest ego that has ever been seen, big enough to permit no one and nothing ANY pre-eminence before me.
So, those who worship God, and keep to His ways, are my enemies, because they would put me in the same bracket as themselves, seeking to have me bow down to the same God i regard, at best, with... indifference, and at worst as an... unwanted nuisance.
Those that therefore seek, also, to put me as an equal to themselves, are themselves also in danger because I regard no one as my equal, and while their actions have, till now been things I overlooked, that shall NO longer be the case. First and foremost, as I have been at pains to point out on more than one occasion, I am a judge, and no judge is ever on the same level as those he sentences.
AND I am also phenomenally... strong. Fuck, you will see that.
Now, let me let you in on a secret, or something obvious and so obvious is it that you have not seen it;- I have NOT run after any of the women that have ended up under my scrutiny, and never will I. as for the five that right now are aware of my... posts, well, I will NOT seek to draw you to myself. Come, or go, your choice, but I am leaving, and once everything with me is.. copper-set, I am pronouncing my doom on the world, AND I will have replacements for you all when I get to where I am going, because it is NOT in me to argue with anyone about ... rights.
I am right, always, and what I say goes, difficult to swallow as that may be.
Now, what the hell are you waiting for?
as the song goes
who you know freshher than HOVE
riddle me that
the rest of you all know where I'm lyrically at
riddle me that
the rest of you all know where I'm lyrically at
