Now that things have reached the 'irrevocable' stage, I must say that having anything to do with a person like nicky? would have been quite a big weight around my neck.When I made my way back to the mountain, I figured that they would all be awake, watching to see me as i alighted from the train , to figure out if I had any food, and thus relax, because to them, it is all about food, yes? I am like a petulant child, but once one stuffs my mouth full of treats, I will becaome as quiscent as a baby that has been fed cooking oil by a prostitute of a mother, just so that she can go abiut her nerfarious 'night shift' while the baby sleeps like a drunk.
But i guess they see, but do not really get beyond the point where what I say about myself registers.
That in the beginning, God said "let US make man out of Our own image, and in Our likeness, and let them have dominion over the fish of the sea, over the fowl of the air, and over the cattle, and over ALL the earth, and over every creeping thing that creeps up on the earth" and since that did not INSTANTLY happen, but rather, He saw that, with His spirit involved, and the demons, and the animals, and the man of dust being unprotected; it was NOT good for him to be alone, and so, He would have a helper for him made, but the man chose a woman, and God ... b-lessed... them, and so made them just a little above the animals, and the man did NOT have the helper that God meant for him, because the alone-ness never ended, for the man, since the woman sought to draw him to her own purposes, and the spirit wanted him to stop thinking that he was so special and just BE a talking animal, even if God specifically came to see the man, daily.
Then comes me, and fuck, with my mother up to her own tricks, I was born insular, and God never even went the route of saying that it was not good for the man to be alone; I can NOT exist in any world or any form of life unless I HAVE dominion and everything is under me, because, since at first, God said the man must be unlike Him, but with something like Him added on, [check the order of His speech] it is what I want that gets done, not the other way around.
and so, as i sit here, thinking I ought to just pull the plug, get the twenty-five, the twenty women and the five girls, and take this opportunity to start literally slaying everyone that has crossed me, and then have to journey to america, somehow sparing obama till I get there, so that i can kill him myself, I find it all so much... labour... but then, the thing is out of my hands.
the women had a choice, that I gave them, to humble themselves before me, and swallow their pride, and the people would just die, and i would not have to kill the women themselves, and i would end up, here in SA with twenty-seven ladies at my side, and then, i would work at proving things so that I had, at the end, enough women to satisfy every pang of mine, but of course, to them, it is always that I am just an insect, something that boasts of things that it has no right to.
ANYWAY, the consolation is that I will finally get to kill michelle, because there is NO way i was just going to let her go peacefully to her death, hell, no. She hid behind others and used them for her own ends, and I am to let her just go like that? Hell, no. I will exact revenge, and even if it is only for a littel while and I will lose her to death anyway, I will have had her see my eys and known just how angry with her I am, and I would have been satisfied with smashing her face in, as well as the faces of all those i listed as being worth my killing them personally, and even butt-head, as well, because, again, must I just let him walk on in life after the insults her heaped on the person who, since I have dominion over every thing that is of flesh on this planet, and over the planet itself, and everything in it, then I am LITERALLY the GOD of ALL flesh;- and a small, little asshle decides that, because his skin is pink like a pig, and because he is not getting any pussy -NOW, I KNOW my God, and He may let people behave the way they want, but He will NEVER let me be dissed so much that He would stand by and let a woman that has crossed me and come under my vengeful eye, be ... taken... by some guy, and then have me entangled with that guy like the woman is worth more than my integrity- and so, thinks that i must be put down, to cover that fact, when the woman is so UGLY that I would rather be in a tank full of hungry piranha than anywhere near her.
Well, then, so be it, if it comes to that, but I REALLY would have liked to have more women, and this is a really dissatisfying conclusion to things.
I thought God was supposed to give me what I was looking for, but now i guess there are things even He can not do,because I see no way that I will be happy if things proceed the way they are going.
Of course, the other thing is that i have been thinking, and if allison, the one who was so used to creating her own extra-time, after the regulation time had expired, is ONLY guilty of being too full of herself and thinking that she should be the boss even if she gradually changed, even though by not too much, and she seemed to have this fixation on being involved too in what I had concluded, and excluded her;- well, if she has lost that mentality, and i must admit that she is one person I would really miss, because i surprised myself the other day by thinking that I would like to go to France, actually that I would leave the french intact, inthe hope that two of her existed, and I felt an intense pain, such as i feel only when thinking, blast her, of having to kill this contemporary art chick, well, then, maybe, i have been focusin n the wrong people.
for some reason I can not find it in myself to kill either one of them, even though I get pissed off with them a lot, and the one has the sexy blonde chick to turn my anger away from her, for a while, while the other has the one that she tried to imitate by letting her hair down to make me realise that she actually has ears, but whether they work or not I can not tell.
But as for that other crew, I am definitely going to end their lives, myself, and NOT give it to someone else to do, even to my helper.
thye hurt me, and their fate is mine to decide, and since I am the LORD, the God of ALL flesh, I will make them suffer below and above the earth, and anyway, I will kill every male in america as well, leave obama and the white females, and then have the females, before they relocate to wherever they wish in Europe, lock him up, and I will come and occupy the white house, which I presume the current secretary of state would have prepared to my liking, ans well as those other places of research.
hell, there are even people here in SA that I am thinking will depart for europe on the plane that will bring the last two of my girls, because they are neither enemies nor indifferent, and of course thay are all females for whom i feel no attraction whatsoever, but they have helped me out a bit.
but for the rest, It is WAR
But i guess they see, but do not really get beyond the point where what I say about myself registers.
That in the beginning, God said "let US make man out of Our own image, and in Our likeness, and let them have dominion over the fish of the sea, over the fowl of the air, and over the cattle, and over ALL the earth, and over every creeping thing that creeps up on the earth" and since that did not INSTANTLY happen, but rather, He saw that, with His spirit involved, and the demons, and the animals, and the man of dust being unprotected; it was NOT good for him to be alone, and so, He would have a helper for him made, but the man chose a woman, and God ... b-lessed... them, and so made them just a little above the animals, and the man did NOT have the helper that God meant for him, because the alone-ness never ended, for the man, since the woman sought to draw him to her own purposes, and the spirit wanted him to stop thinking that he was so special and just BE a talking animal, even if God specifically came to see the man, daily.
Then comes me, and fuck, with my mother up to her own tricks, I was born insular, and God never even went the route of saying that it was not good for the man to be alone; I can NOT exist in any world or any form of life unless I HAVE dominion and everything is under me, because, since at first, God said the man must be unlike Him, but with something like Him added on, [check the order of His speech] it is what I want that gets done, not the other way around.
and so, as i sit here, thinking I ought to just pull the plug, get the twenty-five, the twenty women and the five girls, and take this opportunity to start literally slaying everyone that has crossed me, and then have to journey to america, somehow sparing obama till I get there, so that i can kill him myself, I find it all so much... labour... but then, the thing is out of my hands.
the women had a choice, that I gave them, to humble themselves before me, and swallow their pride, and the people would just die, and i would not have to kill the women themselves, and i would end up, here in SA with twenty-seven ladies at my side, and then, i would work at proving things so that I had, at the end, enough women to satisfy every pang of mine, but of course, to them, it is always that I am just an insect, something that boasts of things that it has no right to.
ANYWAY, the consolation is that I will finally get to kill michelle, because there is NO way i was just going to let her go peacefully to her death, hell, no. She hid behind others and used them for her own ends, and I am to let her just go like that? Hell, no. I will exact revenge, and even if it is only for a littel while and I will lose her to death anyway, I will have had her see my eys and known just how angry with her I am, and I would have been satisfied with smashing her face in, as well as the faces of all those i listed as being worth my killing them personally, and even butt-head, as well, because, again, must I just let him walk on in life after the insults her heaped on the person who, since I have dominion over every thing that is of flesh on this planet, and over the planet itself, and everything in it, then I am LITERALLY the GOD of ALL flesh;- and a small, little asshle decides that, because his skin is pink like a pig, and because he is not getting any pussy -NOW, I KNOW my God, and He may let people behave the way they want, but He will NEVER let me be dissed so much that He would stand by and let a woman that has crossed me and come under my vengeful eye, be ... taken... by some guy, and then have me entangled with that guy like the woman is worth more than my integrity- and so, thinks that i must be put down, to cover that fact, when the woman is so UGLY that I would rather be in a tank full of hungry piranha than anywhere near her.
Well, then, so be it, if it comes to that, but I REALLY would have liked to have more women, and this is a really dissatisfying conclusion to things.
I thought God was supposed to give me what I was looking for, but now i guess there are things even He can not do,because I see no way that I will be happy if things proceed the way they are going.
Of course, the other thing is that i have been thinking, and if allison, the one who was so used to creating her own extra-time, after the regulation time had expired, is ONLY guilty of being too full of herself and thinking that she should be the boss even if she gradually changed, even though by not too much, and she seemed to have this fixation on being involved too in what I had concluded, and excluded her;- well, if she has lost that mentality, and i must admit that she is one person I would really miss, because i surprised myself the other day by thinking that I would like to go to France, actually that I would leave the french intact, inthe hope that two of her existed, and I felt an intense pain, such as i feel only when thinking, blast her, of having to kill this contemporary art chick, well, then, maybe, i have been focusin n the wrong people.
for some reason I can not find it in myself to kill either one of them, even though I get pissed off with them a lot, and the one has the sexy blonde chick to turn my anger away from her, for a while, while the other has the one that she tried to imitate by letting her hair down to make me realise that she actually has ears, but whether they work or not I can not tell.
But as for that other crew, I am definitely going to end their lives, myself, and NOT give it to someone else to do, even to my helper.
thye hurt me, and their fate is mine to decide, and since I am the LORD, the God of ALL flesh, I will make them suffer below and above the earth, and anyway, I will kill every male in america as well, leave obama and the white females, and then have the females, before they relocate to wherever they wish in Europe, lock him up, and I will come and occupy the white house, which I presume the current secretary of state would have prepared to my liking, ans well as those other places of research.
hell, there are even people here in SA that I am thinking will depart for europe on the plane that will bring the last two of my girls, because they are neither enemies nor indifferent, and of course thay are all females for whom i feel no attraction whatsoever, but they have helped me out a bit.
but for the rest, It is WAR
