rude boy selector
nothing but love soon as i metcha
And it is by Sean Paul, R.O.B.B. and Tony Touch, called Esa Loca
For the sake of the mother, whom I can say as much as I am able I ... love... I MAY have something to do with nicky?, and I may possibly spare the asshole butt-head's life and let him live under my... protection in Zimbabwe... but fuck me if I will ever let michelle come with spitting distance of me.
Fuck, I am quite smitten with Allison, who seems to have disappeared totally, and she makes the five that I would take for myself without having to be reasonable about it.
And THAT is it.
Fifteen women and no more, even if there are sisters and mothers out there who feel a grievance with me... up yours!
What else?
Ah, yes, I wonder if the ... mother... is interested in me... or if she just wants her kids out of harm's way, in which case I just walk away.
And leave the whole posse alone if they do not bother me, but I would like to KNOW just what she thinks where I am concerned, because, after all, when it comes right down to it, I am a penniless black man with a death-wish who is nowhere near her... class.
Fuck, I could be holding my head up high here while she is busy snorting at me for my presumption. She probably thinks:- what ME? With that black monster?That, that... THING?
Anyway, if she is interested, then she, not her kids or any such nonsense, makes it known to me, because i am at that stage where I could just take someone's head of for approaching me the wrong way.
I am really, really, on edge.
I like her because she approached me the right way, and never seemed interested in putting me down. Of course, I could be wrong, because people usually do not act as they think, but, she ... impressed me... and got me thinking about her, people in general, and even got me to start caring about what she cared about, so much so that I could not just act all angry and stuff, but even started making ways to get her in my clutches and find a mutually acceptable solution to the problem created by michelle, butt-head, and nicky?
WHOM I would gladly kill at a moment's notice.. or even without notice.
So, there it is. Do I walk away from the one person who has stayed my hand, or what?
I am not really interested in being given the pros and cons of situations, my eyes see well enough, but I would like to know the answer to the question that vexes me?
Why did she act like that, and how does she see me?
Am I a monster or am I something else to her?
That, for the moment, matters the most to me, and i would rather KNOW now than have to wait around till hell freezes over because the woman is hoping something bigger than me will come along and rescue her and her kids from any harm I might inflict on her.
I really NEED to know, see, before I go all... ballistic.
because, whether anyone likes it or not, THIS is division time, when I gather MINE to myself and the rest become ashes and dust.... YESSSS!!
