The reason for THIS is that, today I saw butt-head's mother, and the way she walked spoke volumes, not only of her contempt for me, but also for the fact that she was prepared to 'sacrifice' herself for her son... the little fool.
I do not entertain martyrs, because someone who comes to me must want me, not other things, like the ten women I am CERTAIN of, and they are the symbol, the ' hoko' that I can not overlook and just let anything come through then doors... because it is IMPOSSIBLE to be respected and shown such... attention by complete strangers at first sight unless something about you literally speaks... volumes... about WHO you are, and these women, from the Glencairn Heights girl through to the last in appearance, the girl with the sexiest smile I have ever seen... well, these women DECLARED their... cognisance... of who I am, and for that, I am untouchable by any... undesirables.
It would therefore be an insult to even think I will be... moved... by any entreaty to my better nature, because I have only one, and so, I have decided that as I purposed, 'so shall it stand' [a bit of God is rubbing off on me there] so that butt-head does go to Zimbabwe, by any means necessary, but once he gets there he will be stripped of all his... untouchability... because at the end he will be a pauper, and I suppose the only thing that will keep me from going back to Zimbabwe will not be... consideration for my parents but rather expectation that he will break and I will be waiting to tear him limb from limb.
So, his days just went from bad to worst, and they are getting much worster, because I will make sure that his every day will be passed in torment.
As for the women, the two, Michelle and Nicky?, well, here is the interesting thing. If the sister is not interested in me, then I will have nothing to keep me from tearing the girl Nicky? to pieces, limb from limb, literally, because one thing I love I LOVE is inflicting pain [call it my years of frustration boiling up and bursting to the fore] and so she will die, slowly, and ... excrutiatingly.
but, in the unlikely event that the sister actually WANTS something to do with me, then butt-head vacates the premises, and I take her at his home, just to... take the edge off my anger. And whet it too!
because the girl among the ten I wanted to have a place prepared for me has done me no wrong, so why should she be humiliated, and again, butt-head's other sister has done me no wrong, so i have no need to humiliate HER , but rather to mock the policeman of 18 years as I make his...law... void, and he runs off with his life... the little mama's boy.
Saw him sulking on his way home today, and thought, you aint seen nothing yet, you are going to start SUFFERING!
About Nicky? though, her life is also in her hands. I intend to have her placed in some ... penal colony or some such place, with her friend, preferably a place where there are convicts who have seen no women for a long while, and have them...stay there, with guards to make sure the two, Michelle and her, are not abused... too much.
but they will always have keys to their freedom, and everyday they will be free to leave, and either face an uncertain future where they will be playthings for deranged men, or a certain death where I am waiting. For if they cross the territory I would have earmarked for them, then they will die by my hand, and I will put everything aside to make sure they do die.
So, nine years of hell for the three, THEN death.
This not counting the fact that I will expect the other women I have labelled as mine, the ten for Michelle and the sister and... the other one... for Nicky? just to keep from strangling them anyway.
interesting isnt it?
