Dont really need, no clever words, to understand whats in your face

Ironically, the words above first made their way into my conscious from the subconscious the day the German girl verana came and we spent time talking as i was attending tinashe's stall, and i knew that - following the subsequent ... involvement ...of butthead's mom and part of her family as they went into the curio shop adjacent while she herself had her hand on her chin as she stared at me with a frown from the safety of her car;- this was God's observation of butt-head's mom's observation of me.
Obviously the woman had 'caught me out' and revealed me as a human who wanted something to do, even with kids, and so, she was going to make sure I GOT a kid, just so that I could let her son and family off the hook.
Ironically, these lyrics from the lighthouse family were the first thing on my mind today as i disconsolately walked to the library, after a night in which I surprised myself by realising that I REALLY was not interested in allison [if she had concluded that I meant her yesterday, well, tough luck, I am GOING to kill her] and that my ... heart ... was NOT neutral in this issue of the missing woman, and the five girls.
See, I had seriously wanted the married chick, really, but when that was quashed by another laid-back observation  by God;- "Tarisiro hadzise dzese dzinokunda, ndizvo zvinoita hupenyu":=> "it is not ALL hope that prevails, that is the way of life" [from a song by leonard zhakata, 'Kundiso'] I knew that even if I was going to try to get that woman, there would be no hope for any type of future, so, I tried to figure out the... matter... using the 'previous' things God had said a ... long... time before any of this had even been 'born'; and my own inclinations in the matter.
See, I remember that way back before i even went into the miasma of the entanglement with michelle, when my eyes had been momentarily taken in by this coloured chick who was the friend of the ... last ... woman who was to be known as my 'girlfriend', because she had been kind to me, I had a vision of her younger sister, whose name, incidentally, was... nicky... and she was standing, feeling forsaken, in an aisle, and she was pregnant, and she was looking at me... or towards the 'screen' if you will, and she was going, in English, "So what am I; a recess project?" and behind her there was a guy and a woman, both rather... nondescript... and the guy had his arm round the woman and he invited the coloured girl to join him, and be, in effect, under his other arm, but she looked at them, pondered briefly, and then shook her head.
And the scene shifted to a beach area, wheere in the foreground was a smiling shawn michaels, and he was in a classic combat stance, with his right hand extended a bit out to attack and his left hand on 'guard' which means the right hand was hovering over his family jewels, and he said, "half past", and in the background was a couple, the two who were the male and female leads in the soap miami sands the male being 'michael' while the female was 'laura' and the daughter of the woman was somewhere to the right of the guy who had his arms around the woman on his left, and at the moment i thought that the kid was 'stranded', but, hey one will conclude as one will.
now, shawn michaels, as we all know, perfected the 'ladder match'

and it is quite interesting to see that well, the chief 'angel' in heaven, the one who stands with God, is called michael, and so, if yesterday's post about just WHO was going to be the deciding factor in things really sank in, as God promised, "Government Thor;- Cape Flats", then this woman, who is 'with child' will realise that instead of me hankering after her, SHE has to...eh... do as the lyrics of the same soap went:-which were the beat in the vision:-

coz I live for you
and the joy you make me feel
and I live for you
and this love that you make real
I'll take what I am spared
I'll wait for you I swear
I'll sacrifice my world to be with you...

Now, technically, there is ONLY one woman that...uh... really HAS interested me since the first time I saw her, or rather, after I had seen her but not in the flesh, and while I would have prefered to lay no burden on her, I am still NOT a  completely... forgiving... person;- woman did go and make me mad, see, and so... she has to take the good with the bad, but hey, she is the one I want, WITH my conditions, of course, if she is really the type to be honest.
the lyrics to the song by the lighthouse family that have so struck me today were:-

I know I've been living the simple life
really that's the main thing
Nowadays nobody speaks about
the way they feel about things
I know I need something to set me right
but now it seems there's nothing
nowadays nobody thinks about
a way to ease the suffering...