I never did like and i never will love fans

Them coulda never limit me...
 so listen me...

MY main aim is  to mantain

beyond 2005 stay alive jah jah we are fear
take care of the brethren
because the system design with...
my main aim is to stay sane
because I never did like and I never will love fans
So listen me
those who player hate and keep on dissing me
tell them say them can not stop the synergy

them coulda never limit me
matter how them mimic and gimmic me
tell them say them can not stop me energy
I'm giving them the trinity... 

I hate the fact that I write something and then something goes wrong, as usual, with me, on the computer and then everything that I have posted after the 'published' version disappears. So, I will adopt the method I had been using for a while now, which is to post and then update periodically before I finish the post.
Now, if someone had been paying attention and not sulking she would have figured out that there is more to... this ... than just her and things about her. I am speaking of the sister of the contemporary art chick, the... subject... of my yesterday posts, and well, this is about ME, and now you will see me, unmasked, yesss!
OK, so God controls thing with me, see, and He is in overall command because I have as much interest in life as a fish out of water can breathe. I am out of my depth in everything, and my first assumption at all times about anything is that everytime something happens, God has changed the game, or grown tired of being... responsible... for me. I for example, reasoned ... awry... that the reason why i ended up with vinnie was that God was trying to prevent me from doing the contemporary art chick harm, when in effect, as i discovered the day i went back to sleep on the mountain, He had meant for me to take time out to grieve, and to therefore,  by doing nothing but observe, just get to grips with the truth that the girl was interested in subverting me to her purposes, whatever they are.
that I WILL kill her, is of course, inevitable. Because, see, I have no reason NOT to, and THAT is usually enough for me to do something, simply because as things stand, i have no inhibition except it comes in the form of God Himself.
now, you see, I really do not care for people that are reading my posts for fun, but rather that those who read the posts be ... acceptable... women [in this case white chicks, unattached with no moustaches, please, or kids they want taken care of, or attitudes that they can do 'me' better than I can do 'me'(ALL those that did that I will kill personally)] whose reason in persisting or pestering me is that they want me for the obvious, physical reasons.
because, as I said, i am homicidal, and i have as much tolerance for people's folly as an aeroplane blade has clearance in the turbine;- which is something like less than a hair's breadth.
Fuck, God ... let me learn to fight, and I am NOT going to waste that and act like i am not chaffed that some fools walk all over me and I just look to God to see whether He will say that I deserved it, or He will let me do as i feel like doing, and that is to tear them apart and leave them just bloody pulps, and THEN, because they would be an eyesore, send the remains, and soul, to hell, yesss!Well, guess I will do just that, because it is either I do that, or I let my mother remain alive, irking me because I had made up my mind she would enjoy nothing of my labour, and since God has not said no, but rather seemed to be guiding me to the point where i got to say that I would hate it if she was even aware of my... rise, and so, she has to die, and if she goes to hell, so be it, I would lose no sleep over it.... I am ... INCAPABLE... of remorse, which makes the statements like "never send to know for whom the bell tolls, it tolls for you" quite spurious indeed.
So, I am interested in getting for myself women, and filling my quota of the women, the 67 i said i would have, and then destroying the rest and then leaving because no one gave me rest in this place; everyone has been contentious,and all the women that have even come under my scrutiny and been acceptable as the twenty-one, hey, even they have not seen fit to do anything else except show how they feared me and were willing to leave everything if I was... lifted up... and it never occurred to them that I was flesh and blood like them, they were too self-centred, which is very depressing indeed.
Anyway, if nothing changes for me, I am calling it quits today, and calling on my voice and sending people to hell except for the assholes that have made me determined to kill them myself, and these I will kill personally, and indeed, I have determined that I will work out my own way to germany and holland to get the two women, and then from there to the US, and kill obama, and settle there while , I make my own means of transport to go off-planet, and take holidays to see if there exist women who are not as selfish as those i have encountered, and till I find these, I will not leave.because I know that a single practical... example... alive and kicking, is better than a million words, because in most cases actions speak louder than words.
and so, till I find the woman that gives my boiling heart... rest... I am not so sure that even these, the ten who bear the ... minimum... requirements/standard for acceptability would be safe from my anger, and I do not  want to have women that I would have to kill later.
then, of course, there are the rest of them, that were not so obvious, but spoke with me freely at times but knew the cut-off point and could not help seeing that I have the kind of tolerance i spoke of earlier, and did not  require that I speak for them to... simmer down.
NOW though...
there are the five girls that came my way; the redhead, the nicole kidman look-alike, the canadian-based girl whose mother has a gallery in kalk bay [if vinnie KNEW what i was doing (apparently she is important to him ecause she helps him out, the mother that is) on my blogspot he would explode, but hey, i did not call her into my path]the smiling girl at fish hoek library, and [if I do not count the blond st-peters girl, not that she does not count but she ... eh... is NOT... at least used to playing games with men, which should show you just how... pissed off i am already, with them girls. ALL of them] the david matthews blond, whose... unattachement... is in serious doubt, which means I am most likely to kill her as well, and spoil my math anyway.

 I have become something of an oddity in kalk bay, and frankly i am tired of the whole thing, but I am not stupid enough to assume that I can whistle for rest and it will come to me. I am angry, because I never asked for this, and every day I bleed my rage and grief for every step I take, and the good thing, though, as far as i am concerned, is that for some reason I have been getting better, though angrier. All i need are some leg splits once in a while, and i will settle once and for all, to myself and any who seek to dispute it, the question of just who is the best fighter and killer in the world. It would not do for me to brag and brag and brag and never do anything about it. So, i have to do it, and since every theory is only as good as its proof, I am going to have to show just what the fuck I can do. Which reminds me of another sean paul song, with dmx and di doom (mr vegas). 
I will load it down here

DMX... 
 dont look at me like that
we just might fight back
in a fight, it might end up with me 
taking your life pal
I dont go for the balls just because I'been down
time is just too important
to be fucking around
tough nigga
i stuff a mudhole to your face
motherfucker
i rip your butt-hole out of place
clap a Glock to your head
get off about two in it
yeah its a dirty job but i just love doing it
here comes the boom

(sean paul)
so make them know we got a shooting gallery
killing is fun and we no need no ...
pull up the armour so nobody nuh follow we
and we no owe no apology
 DI DOOM/Sean paul

enjoy the killing time...
Shot hotter than pepper mr clever and me glock  are gonna speak for me crew...
 

these are FYI the guns famously known as glocks, and I am saying it in this case not because I am in favour of weapons, but because of the song itself, see. I like up close and personal, and bare hands, never mind what the opposition is using! YESSS 

Hear the growl of dmx as the song starts? hell, yeah, I am that fucking pissed off by everything, and I am going to... enjoy... letting off steam, as i deal with these silly fools and everyone else who stands in my way.... yesssssss!

I am more like the black guy below... but, as king julian ,in madagascar II escape to africa, said when he was speaking of what he wanted to do if he had only two days to live... "and get like... even better, and make my living out of it"

Fuck only a fool is not afraid of me. I want to find such fools and ....GRRRRRRRRRRRR!