And one should be VERY suspicious when one goes to the same place the NEXT day, and one is told by one's Friend that one will SEE something before one is gone from the place, and one should be VERY VERY suspicious when one is on the train, going back to one's ... home... and one's Friend -eh, that IS what Friends are for, right?- then says, just as one is looking out the window to where one's enemies are;- "Vidkun Quisling"...!Fuck am I talking about?
hell, I will start with the ...obvious.
for some weird reason, after i had promised to... kill her, and was now a bit uncertain about just what these visions meant... I saw again, yesterday morning, the girl with her interesting gap between her legs, as i was walking with my weird mountain-mate, obert, freshly back from zimbabwe.
I went, WTF? and thought that she, of course, was in on the 'well, it is me in the vision' frenzy that has had me see people like the unspeakably ... ugly... carol show up also on saturday after the woman with the facial hair had also done her bit the day before.
So, yesterday, as i was going ... home... I was all ready to just chuck off everything, but then, i could NOT escape the fact that I KNEW just who was meant THERE, but the ... chances... of it being even remotely real were one in a million, and so, I was stuck, because the source of my unlimited power is the same one from where the visions come;- ignore THAT and well, there is, a has been all my life, no cohesion, no UNION, and thus, no PEACE withing myself, and no DEVELOPMENT of any kind.
So, I have had to hang my boots, and, with the name of the person who.. 'betrayed' his own countryman for hitler's... power over them, and THE vision itself, PLUS the fact that it is easy to deduce certain other things when one knows that one is never ... inclined... to just let... interesting things ... go... like last night when i was plotting the deaths of people and came to alison and found myself shying away from her, and my Friend said " Look Me in My eyes", and i knew that I had to address this whole issue, and... OK, OK, I will take it from the top.
Right, when it comes to the vision, I will explain the ... background. paula, the coloured chick, had, as you all by now know, a moustache, and that can be taken to mean she has man-like tendencies, right? She would, when facing a man, for example, seek to dominate him and have him , for example carry her burdens. Does that sound like anyone in my past? Aside from the literal michelle [frankly, here I am wondering whether I would NOT be better off killng her personally, with my own bare hands, but I... suppose... that if i did that I would probably end up unleashing the bloodlust I want to never have to face again] that would also be... butt-head's mom, would it not, with her intent on my having to stop wanting the asshole dead, or to give him some kind of... life, when we ALL know, by now, that only women will be alive a few days from now, and very few of them anyway in RSA... .
But does she have a 'younger sister'? Hell, who cares? this is a vision,here, and well, since a sister is one that comes after => succeeds => (as in biblical kingship and records) firstborn=> firstborn daughter, who is pregnant => with child=> has a child with her=> her daughter who has a child and who was unhapy with me because I just... dumped her.. when I seemed to have something more interesting to push ,and who ... just happens ... to be called 'nicky?' :- I mean, hello?
now, I will have you notice ONE thing.
First there is nicky?, then the girl with the interesting gap in her legs and then allison, and then the french inkfish girl, and then finally, butt-head's mom, and these are the ones that have had... replacements, but NOT, curiously michelle, and not the woman with her facial hair, and not various and sundry other people who I just rejected, but THEN, the girl with the interesting gap between her legs is surely not a 'continent' person, because I have seen her respond to some guys, and so her... interest ... is NOT genuine, nor was that of the english girl catherine, but these LAST Three, and the girl nicky? did not seem to have other guys in their lives, and if they did, it was not what i thought it was, was it?
if my reading of things is accurate.
So, that means there are four women here, and, if I am real honest with myself, then there is the girl who came to the library and just sat and smiled, and left [fuck, everytime God is about to introduce someone different in my life, he first of all speaks about it, and me meeting a girl like the nicole kidman loook-alike because I complained and she just happens to come and then look at me like I am dinner, hell, maybe SHE was not the real McCoy] and then there was the blonde daughter of the st-peters woman.
nicky? I found difficult to let go, and I suspect that SHE is the major reason I was up and down in S/Town, and while her mother may NOT be much to look at from neck down, she at least did what she did... with such great respect i find it difficult to just throw her away like rubbish, although if she DOES stick to her son, I WILL have to, since I am NOT bound to take her or anyone; I can veto this if I am either kept waiting or if they start again looking at themselves like they are something out of this world; and then allison, well, she DID sort of change, but now she would have to go all the way, and the frech girl, hell, I got her cowed, so maybe she will think twice before trying to go head-to-head with me. I hate being... advised... or argued with. Dont like my style, stay away. Come to me prepared to get with MY programme;- there are NO alternatives to MY way.To cap it all, remember the "Stop Drinking" thing? Well, it seems that it meant that I should being bitter because the two side by side [hebrew culture represents succession, father right, son left,hence 'righteousness'=>] mother - daughter are inagreement over submission to me. Good, because I wont have nicky's daighter
