See, ever since I had said that I would NEVER accept healing from God's hand, the pain I have been feeling in my nether regions had begun to intensify, and more drastically,I found myself unable to even go to the toilet. Except to pee, which even then was a bit of a task.
thought at first it was to do with the cash-flow problem, that maybe because I had been broke and did not buy food so maybe my system, used to me having to cook rice in a rusted tin, which,being absent-minded about it most of the time, meant I swallowed food without much chewing, so maybe the richer foods I was getting from others were NOT so easy to come out, but last night put me beyond doubt about it all.
I cooked my food, fish first, and had some bread with it, but still, even a pregnant woman would have had a more pleasant time than I did, and what came out after seemingly tearing me-self apart was... anyway, you get the drift.
So, I went up the mountain, got me some water for my rice,and waited expectantly, and still ... pain.So, I decided on the proper course,and decided to... involve God in the problem, and knowing my ... temper ... I decided on a neutral approach, laying it all before Him in the appropriate manner, telling Him that while I AM adamant that I will NOT have anything from His hands, I STILL think it is His fault that I am in this situation, because it would never have happened that I would have resorted to THIS if it was NOT primarily because He was involved in my life,and so, I could not cope with His brooding presence in everything I did. However, since He did defend Himself and say that HIS yoke was easy and His burden was light, and since He made it... obvious to me that I WOULD get the crown if I ... SAW that everything that happens happens in HIM, it still IS, therefore His responsibility to see to it that my life is NOT hard and difficult.
So, how about doing the thing that He is already known for;- the thing that He said to the hebrews as He took then from captivity, that "if you will keep MY statuettes and obey My commands, then I will NOT BRING OUT on you the diseases that I brought out on the Egyptians , for I am YHWH who covers you", and so, do THAT with me, and create a hedge so that, while I am working on eliminating the disease, the ones responsible for ... bringing it out would have no... power... and I would have neither pain nor sores nor difficulty in walking... et.c.
And I went and relieved myself, and it was quite nice,. If it was NOT shit I would have kissed it.
And the pain was so much less than before, when I woke up this morning:- I did NOT have to be like a person with swollen, tender balls when I started walking, but walked quite ... almost... normally, and even the sores were receding.
In a few days I think I will be 100% ... covered, and THEN I am going on my mission to... kill and destroy.
Because I am really PISSED off by peopls assuming that I am somehow going to get to the end of my... arogance, and be humbled by God, like this stupid woman allison who, once she realises that I... listen ... to God, decided, "oh, no, He is on MY side so if you want anything you have to treat me like something because the weay you are doing things is wrong." Probably the stupid fool thinks I am supposed to have just one woman, and that she is it. If her rings are anything to go by, then she has already failed once to do just that, and so supposes that she will succeed with me, someone that she treats like a child, easily swayed and tricked with candy and bright lights and such inconsequentia that mothers use to make sure that they quieten their bairns.
Well, you idiot, as the song goes,
even though I got my own CD
maybe even on TV
there aint no changing me
I can ONLY be ME, ME, ME
maybe even on TV
there aint no changing me
I can ONLY be ME, ME, ME
Which means the judgement I rponounced against you STANDS!
dont like it? GOOD, take it up with YOUR GOD Whos stands with you, and is on your side, because if you think yu or any one of the four people that I havce set my heart against for evil will ever walk into my door and start giving me your pieces of mind, you are in for a .. rude... jolt, that will wake you up.,
The ONE person that you overlook and still thing will do as you want, and do as you dictate, is the ONER person who, in every sense of the word, holds the UNLIMITED power over every ASPECT of your life, you silly simpering sissy!
I said I will kill that boy, and so I will, and you too, if you think I will stand back and let you cary on with your intrusions into my life and your drive-bys!
You, butt-head's mom and that stupid inkfish chick.
FOOLS, intead of getting your heads on straight and seeing things as they are, or, if you disagree with what I do, staying the fuck away from me, you thought you would walk in and set me ...straight? Fuck do you think you are?
Fuck, if it was NOT for the fact that I am ... more... interested in getting michelle to eat the dust and be brougfht lower than the soles of my feet, I would wash my hands of you , you ....GRRRRRR!
And you avctually think you.. matter, fools!
The ONLY one that I have time for is , aside from, nicky? who seems to have at least some semblance os sense, in that she does NOT wander around in my path willy-nilly as you do, and think I will be impressed by seing your stupid silly faces, is the sexy RAV woman, who at least had the sense to relalise that a person needs to eat,and tried to ... win me over... to her by not treating me as some kind of zombie that feels nothing , but exists to do what you want and is treated with a slap or a glance of the asses depending on whther he has been a bad or a good little boy.
Oh, you SHALL pay.
And I am NOT forgetting you, faggot-face. The time for talk is coming fast to an end. and my things are almost done, and then you and me, we have a personal encounter waiting for us, and you WILL rue ever crossing my path.
EVERY sodding one of you fools!
dont like it? GOOD, take it up with YOUR GOD Whos stands with you, and is on your side, because if you think yu or any one of the four people that I havce set my heart against for evil will ever walk into my door and start giving me your pieces of mind, you are in for a .. rude... jolt, that will wake you up.,
The ONE person that you overlook and still thing will do as you want, and do as you dictate, is the ONER person who, in every sense of the word, holds the UNLIMITED power over every ASPECT of your life, you silly simpering sissy!
I said I will kill that boy, and so I will, and you too, if you think I will stand back and let you cary on with your intrusions into my life and your drive-bys!
You, butt-head's mom and that stupid inkfish chick.
FOOLS, intead of getting your heads on straight and seeing things as they are, or, if you disagree with what I do, staying the fuck away from me, you thought you would walk in and set me ...straight? Fuck do you think you are?
Fuck, if it was NOT for the fact that I am ... more... interested in getting michelle to eat the dust and be brougfht lower than the soles of my feet, I would wash my hands of you , you ....GRRRRRR!
And you avctually think you.. matter, fools!
The ONLY one that I have time for is , aside from, nicky? who seems to have at least some semblance os sense, in that she does NOT wander around in my path willy-nilly as you do, and think I will be impressed by seing your stupid silly faces, is the sexy RAV woman, who at least had the sense to relalise that a person needs to eat,and tried to ... win me over... to her by not treating me as some kind of zombie that feels nothing , but exists to do what you want and is treated with a slap or a glance of the asses depending on whther he has been a bad or a good little boy.
Oh, you SHALL pay.
And I am NOT forgetting you, faggot-face. The time for talk is coming fast to an end. and my things are almost done, and then you and me, we have a personal encounter waiting for us, and you WILL rue ever crossing my path.
EVERY sodding one of you fools!
