I will be gone in the morning
when
you awake and find
I'm no longer there
when
you awake and find
I'm no longer there
So, of course, I waited in dread for the night to reveal what I had overlooked, this time, and of course, i am NOT amused by what I found, but, as He pointed out using this guy's words [same guy who is famous for being involved with rihanna and beating her up during the course of their ... relationship, note the... irony]when butt-head's mom did her near confrontatio of me just past the 2and 6 pub with her glaring makeup and... chiffon?
I wont let you fall
meaning, of course , that, since He... arrested... my motion as far as women are concerned and made me wait and see what, for instance, the fuss was all about with "September 18: Independence day", He will NOT allow me to then carry on as i used to and beat up women that I am ... involved with, in the future, meaning that whoever has to come into my life will have to either satisfy the condition of being totaly devoted to me, or be someone that i can... stand... and who is yet, safe, from me, meaning of course, she IS interested in me, and ONLY me,period!
Wasn't long before He got to the point:- and I had, on my HUD, the number "77" and so, since i KNOW that there are 7and 3 of the second row of women that made me to be 'aware' of myself and my own... inclinations, I easily deduced that He was telling me that there were, not five, but four that were 'acceptable' on my current lot, and so i fumed, and tried to find out just who I had to let go, and who was the... missing one.
Easy, when you get down to it, because the ONE thing that i have been stressing is the one thing that makes me an implacable person, the one thing that, when we strip everything of all the glamour and easy-going hype, is the reason why i am going to kill people that i would ... normally... be eating my meals with and joking with;- I can NOT forget any slight, ever!
My memory is what rules, deep down, and it is because of THAT that i know that, sexy or not, stunning or not, I am going to have to... kill... the kalk bay contemporary art blond chick, because she ... dared... to look at me when she was involved with someone, married even.
THAT is the reason also why i will have to kill allison, all the people that have seemed to be too innocuous to real be threats, because it is what they werethinking of me, the position they put me in, that will make it impossible for me to just turn and walk away from them.
Now, I will be honest;- i LIKE nicky? She was plucky to lean toward me when she was in the car with her brother, and she does have a stunning face, and well, even as i took it in that she was, in effect, rubbing my face in the ... differences... between us, i still lowered the hood of that overcoat i am wearing up top, so she could look at me properly and see just who I really was.
BUT for all that, i am likely going to kill her for what she had done before, and i do NOT want to. So, since she is unsafe from me on her own, and I hate having a woman with me who i will then harm later, I suppose that, for my own peace of mind, and because the sister is rather sexy, she WILL have to come, not alone, but WITH the sister, and also, because we are looking at an eternity of suffering and paying for something that one did in an instant, I will have to have her reminded of what she ... cost... me by having her daughter along as well, so that she can cry a little everytime she sees me with her, just as I will always be unhappy everytime I look at her and see her for ALL she is and has done.
So, unfortunately, if THESE women and females all come, I will have 27 ladies to go to my temporary 'home' with, and while i hate the... implications... with madiba's incarceration being the same number of years, i admit that, it is no 'easy walk to freedom', especially as I have come alos to realise that my memory thing affects even things with God, as well.
He came uninvited into my life, and of the 31 years of life that I have so far... endured... I can NOT decide which half was worse; the one where he was riding shotgun in my life, or when my mom was making me miserable, and so, while i amy embark on a journey to go 'seek' a home where He is, I also know that IF I get there, then He WILL have to kill e, because i WILL confront Him about it; the ONE thing He seems uninterested in coming out in the open about.
I see me doomed to wander the galaxies for all eternity, which brings me to another tyhing that I have... noticed... about my... health.
Never will I accept it 'gratis' at His hands, and the ONLY way for me to get healed is to do what I see is the only practical thing that suits my temperament, which is to find the link that makes a spirit able to interact with flesh and blood, and close it, thus closing the ability of the same spirit to cause women to...ovulate... and also aking it possibke for me to discover just how these spirits move in.. space... as i search for a portal to 'jump space';- which means that ALL the females, and those I will get over... there... [memory thing, see, some wounds STILL have to be covered,. but ALL the women will be whitewhich means I will do away with all non-essential races] will have to be... infected for a while, nothing I can do about it!
Wasn't long before He got to the point:- and I had, on my HUD, the number "77" and so, since i KNOW that there are 7and 3 of the second row of women that made me to be 'aware' of myself and my own... inclinations, I easily deduced that He was telling me that there were, not five, but four that were 'acceptable' on my current lot, and so i fumed, and tried to find out just who I had to let go, and who was the... missing one.
Easy, when you get down to it, because the ONE thing that i have been stressing is the one thing that makes me an implacable person, the one thing that, when we strip everything of all the glamour and easy-going hype, is the reason why i am going to kill people that i would ... normally... be eating my meals with and joking with;- I can NOT forget any slight, ever!
My memory is what rules, deep down, and it is because of THAT that i know that, sexy or not, stunning or not, I am going to have to... kill... the kalk bay contemporary art blond chick, because she ... dared... to look at me when she was involved with someone, married even.
THAT is the reason also why i will have to kill allison, all the people that have seemed to be too innocuous to real be threats, because it is what they werethinking of me, the position they put me in, that will make it impossible for me to just turn and walk away from them.
Now, I will be honest;- i LIKE nicky? She was plucky to lean toward me when she was in the car with her brother, and she does have a stunning face, and well, even as i took it in that she was, in effect, rubbing my face in the ... differences... between us, i still lowered the hood of that overcoat i am wearing up top, so she could look at me properly and see just who I really was.
BUT for all that, i am likely going to kill her for what she had done before, and i do NOT want to. So, since she is unsafe from me on her own, and I hate having a woman with me who i will then harm later, I suppose that, for my own peace of mind, and because the sister is rather sexy, she WILL have to come, not alone, but WITH the sister, and also, because we are looking at an eternity of suffering and paying for something that one did in an instant, I will have to have her reminded of what she ... cost... me by having her daughter along as well, so that she can cry a little everytime she sees me with her, just as I will always be unhappy everytime I look at her and see her for ALL she is and has done.
So, unfortunately, if THESE women and females all come, I will have 27 ladies to go to my temporary 'home' with, and while i hate the... implications... with madiba's incarceration being the same number of years, i admit that, it is no 'easy walk to freedom', especially as I have come alos to realise that my memory thing affects even things with God, as well.
He came uninvited into my life, and of the 31 years of life that I have so far... endured... I can NOT decide which half was worse; the one where he was riding shotgun in my life, or when my mom was making me miserable, and so, while i amy embark on a journey to go 'seek' a home where He is, I also know that IF I get there, then He WILL have to kill e, because i WILL confront Him about it; the ONE thing He seems uninterested in coming out in the open about.
I see me doomed to wander the galaxies for all eternity, which brings me to another tyhing that I have... noticed... about my... health.
Never will I accept it 'gratis' at His hands, and the ONLY way for me to get healed is to do what I see is the only practical thing that suits my temperament, which is to find the link that makes a spirit able to interact with flesh and blood, and close it, thus closing the ability of the same spirit to cause women to...ovulate... and also aking it possibke for me to discover just how these spirits move in.. space... as i search for a portal to 'jump space';- which means that ALL the females, and those I will get over... there... [memory thing, see, some wounds STILL have to be covered,. but ALL the women will be whitewhich means I will do away with all non-essential races] will have to be... infected for a while, nothing I can do about it!
